This damage, I will never be whole or perfect or beautiful. I will never keep love around very long. I cause this, all of it. bring this all on myself. I want forever I want eternity and I want understanding. I want to give all of me and not look back or question or be afraid. damage damage damage, I will always be damaged. I want my other, my ( Read more... )

It's happening again, and all the pain and tears, are flooding back against this thing I keep falling into, it's happening again. I wanted to have outgrown this.

-H

I'm feeling really down today ( Read more... )

So yeah, wow, been a while ( Read more... )

Just leave her out of it, please, it was my choice not hers ( Read more... )

as long as the game is not too easy...it remains interesting. the minute the game is up a certain measure of it becomes boring. perhaps this is why we like crazimakers the ones who show you enough of their game to keep you engaged, but never reveal all of it...the moment at which the game is fully revealed has to be carefully selected...another one ( Read more... )

My body is so very strange. last week, my tongue swelled up and my jaw cramped, my shoulder got knotted up and I was in pain down into my lower back and later on my leg...all on the left side ( Read more... )

I feel so deeelooped. deeee looped meaning taken out of de loop. I want to get back to my show, I want to get back to my apartment. I don't mind being alone but I do mind being alone in a strange place where I am watching TV on Friday night. for those of you who haven't caught on I am on a bussiness trip this weekend in VA. comming back to the city ( Read more... )

Don't want to admit to myself that I am starting to fall back in again...I need to be stronger than this.

-H