i am not romantic. not in the least. i wish to be. i want to be. i try to be. but i am not. i want more than anything to be someone's everything and to do everything right and to be sweet and good and all heart. but i am not. i never have been, and i probably never will be. i think too much. way too much. that is my problem. i'm too analytical. i'm ( Read more... )

jackie strachman is the sweetest girl ever.
and i love her.
and i miss her.

and you fools can make fun of me all you want to.

it's 4:54 pm, thursday june 17, and i am in needham, massachusetts. yes, i really am. i don't know how all this happened. i swore i would stand my ground. i wanted to see her and be done with it. but i am in love with her. i really am. i saw her and i knew ( Read more... )

i am going to see her in less than a week from now. she is coming to pittsburgh and we are gonna talk. i don't know what we are gonna say. i don't know what there is to say. we talked online last night for like nine hours. and we talked online today for like 4. we have talked about a lot already. i guess i want to see her because i will know how i ( Read more... )

she wants me back. she told me she is still in love with me. and it was the biggest mistake she has ever made in her life. she told me she wants to be a better person. she wants to stop being an obnoxious drunk blonde frat girl. she told me she isn't into him and she never was. she told me that she is the one heartbroken and destroyed ( Read more... )

i have a crush on you. (if you promise to not let me destroy you, i will adore you ( Read more... )

i really tried to feel better over the last couple of days...it was kinda working, because i made myself angry instead of sad. but maybe i am fucking weak. maybe i am a fool. but i can't help but care. it still fucking hurts me, it hurts my heart and my fucking mind, to know that she is not even hurting. she has already moved on, she had moved on ( Read more... )

i thought i smelled her perfume just now.
god i miss her
i miss her like i have never missed anyone
i want more than anything to hold her in my arms.
i would even love to have her tickle attack me, or poke at my face, or try to touch my belly button.
i would love to have her distract me from what i am doing, or whine for me to come cuddle her.

i wish i could take it all back. i wish i never hurt you. i wish i wasn't even capable of hurting you. you don't deserve it. i wish i didn't feel like this. i wish it didn't hurt so much. it would be so much easier that way. but it does. it feels like my heart is in the pit of my stomach and it may never work it's way back up to where it's supposed ( Read more... )

♥Sparkbop and ♥Tomboybacklash

• Plan to conceive a handful of genius children.
• Wish to slow dance nearly everywhere.
• Are rumoured to be behind a food poisoning ring.