I have been making these promises. And not keeping them. I have been a major let down to myself this week. Not completing any of the goals on time or caring until it was far to late ( Read more... )

As it turned out I have bells palsy of the face unilaterally. Which basically means I have lost the use of my eye brows the ability to smile and must make a concious effort to blink enough to keep my eyes mosturized. Its kind of lame really. Bells palsy usually happens only asyemetrically in fact having it happen sysemtrically is 1 in 5 million ( Read more... )

My dad came home two nights ago and just starting yelling and yelling. He said I had no plan that my life was a mess that I was bound to become homeless. He told me that I lived like someone from harlem which can only be understood and a racist coloqialism from an era that never existed. He just drills me its like tonight is the scary the shit ( Read more... )

list of complaints ( Read more... )

Panik has been subsiding which is nice. I still feel lonely but its been okay been doing a fair amount of homework actually and I might even finish all i need to do so I can graduate in the spring its exciting kind of. I just need to avoid my instints lately which is to find the nearest hole and role around in it. With no phone I haven't been ( Read more... )

This morning I was watching some morally questionable porn and in my moans of delight I called the young lass a dirty whore which was strange but moments after I called her a dirty whore she exlaimed I am a dirty whore and it just made wonder why I was such a psychic pervert. I have been jones for a smoke this morning but I have quit. I am tired ( Read more... )

Its litteral the feeling of loss
its literal this feeling that burns
its litteral the emptiness that churns
its literal the litter of empty promises all discarded
I sew my alliterations into my heart hoping that it all adds up
Adds up litterally

shoppers kill man in bargain frenzy (taken from pazix)
news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081128/ap_on_re_us/ ( Read more... )

I have found another disorder that i identify with. I don't know what to think about that. My brother is getting kicked out of the house so its just going to be me which is going to make living at dads even more lonely. I will be finding myself new stretches of existing i suppose. With no one to identify with but me. Maybe i should get a job ( Read more... )

Do you have untensil disphoria som symptoms maybe having trouble using apliances of any kind for unknown reasons/.

Had another amazing dream last night I was fighting pirates. It was my first fighting dream that I can remmeber where I didn't feel like I was losing. Its hard to describe why my dreams have been amazing its been less about the actual content and more about the euphoric feeling I have while I am dreaming them. I am currently in the library at ( Read more... )