have you ever stopped and noticed how beautiful life can really be? It's a miserable world of pain and deceit, but i think that may be a mask some god covered the earth in long ago. Perhaps to keep somebody from enjoying it--- or maybe to help us all think a little more ( Read more... )

tonight the weather and the wind were perfect with the sky and my mood, so it lead me to crave the beach {as i often do ( Read more... )

hey Jupiter.
nothings been the same . . .
so are you gay ?
are you blue??
thought we both could use a friend
to run to and I thought I wouldn't have to keep ( Read more... )

i was on the phone earlier, and i caught a small glimpse of myself in the mirror. my black hair was touching the floor as i dangled my head upside down. my eyeliner was badly painted on, and running slighty from my face ( Read more... )

maybe everyone is right. i'm just a bitch. i don't deserve happiness. i don't deserve to dye my hair the color i enjoy looking at. yah, i definantly should not get that pleasure. {?}

i'm so very confused and sad. i just want to be myself. is there something so wrong with mei hurt a lot. i wish someone could understand this. stan is taking ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot about the past these last few days. The long nights at The Pit, followed by mornings at The Waffle House or in the front seat of a red Oldsmoblie. I remember the first time I saw Justin play guitar. It was open mic night. A Thursday. He had never played in public before, and it was a "big deal". I remember him walking over ( Read more... )

It's a lot different watching the sunset alone at the park. The air is still cool, and the grass is damp below my feet. My little sister and her friend are feeding seagulls. I never thought we'd live this close to the bay again. I should know by now I guess--> That it's everywhere I go ( Read more... )

i slept most of the day away once again. i know i haven't been keeping up with you, and for that i apoligize. i keep starting letters, and getting distracted ( Read more... )

i just had the worst night at work ever. tony totally told me off for speaking my opinion. he told me i have an attitude problem. i asked cara if she thought that was true. cara told me i can be very rude. it all hurt my feelings so much, because i just left my good paying job to be nice and stick by their sides. it seems sometimes, i can do ( Read more... )

So I realize it's been forever since I've written to you. really, but five days seems like a long time to me ( Read more... )