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My thoughts and emotions at this moment in time
The following is what I felt spilling out of myself. It includes many quotes from songs and other sources... it is just what I felt at the time ( Read more... ) -
Baseball bat dream
In my dream I was comming out of walmart with my mother and younger sister and heading to the car. As we got closer a guy I see at work sometimes is handing out fliers. As we get closer the presense of my mother and sister seemed to vanish and I became more aware of what he was doing. He was trying to hurt buisness for my dad's company by spreading ( Read more... ) -
Surprise?
I forgot what I was going to rant about. by the time I got into my account it's all lost from my head. I saw someone today that not too long ago we were afraid was going to die. She improved a lot and I saw her not very long ago. I didn't say anything to her. She looked just fine though. A bit tired, worn out. but she looked good! I never saw her ( Read more... ) -
Nothing Matters In the end
The low after the high. I'm hoping that's all this is. I feel so upset about nothing at all. The past few days were amazing. Last night I just started to feel down. So what if I didn't get invited to the cast party? I wasn't the only one. Besides, who wants to sit around, eat potato chips & drink beer? Not I. I wouldn't have touched either had I ( Read more... ) -
I don't really care
I feel like venting. I don't know why, I just do. I can't think of anything I want to vent about. I guess I'm just stressed. I keep finding myself stress eating. I need to develop a low-stress schedule so that I can get my weight under control. The problem is: I thrive on stress. It may sound crazy, but I love it. Being able to say "sorry, I can't ( Read more... ) -
Late nights
Whee ... it's currently 3:53 AM! I have to be at work by 9. I haven't gone to sleep yet. I don't particularly feel tired either. I had a fun time tonight, my sister had a bunch of friends over and well.. I hung out with them. I'm kind of pathetic that way, I don't have my own friends, but I tend to get along with anyone and everyone. I should ( Read more... ) -
Happiness
I'm not allowed to be happy, am I ( Read more... ) -
Terror
I agree to watch my nephew, it's a problem to my younger sister. I don't agree, it's a problem to his mother, my older sister and therefore becomes a problem with MY mother. He won't stay laying down long enough to fall asleep and when he's at our house he sleeps in my younger sister's room. She has a very good point. He's destroyed a lot of things ( Read more... ) -
Pathetic me
It's saturday. I'm at work. I'm not working. I need to call a replacement to come in at noon. I dont think she'll come so I'm pretty depressed. I havent even picked up the phone yet. I've been taking her shifts every day for 2 weeks now. She better be back monday. I can't do this any more ( Read more... )