It's been a long time since the last time I posted something on here. I've been writing a lot more in my paper journal so I find writing in two places redundant and boring. I guess a short update on here would be good every once in a while. Even my friends page has been blank because others aren't writing. Maybe livejournal is just getting old ( Read more... )

venting ( Read more... )

Life......it goes on ( Read more... )

I've had such a great birthday. One of the best probably. Friday night my parents took me out to dinner at an Italian restaurant. Soooo yummy. I had my first creme brulee....omg heaven. After that I went to meet up with Mike at Newton Centre. We spent the evening watching UP...though we didn't watch the whole thing because I was so tired. Saturday ( Read more... )

There are moments when I feel like I have clarity.......they are rare. Most of my life lately seems like chaos. Complete chaos. Two of the three jobs I had will be taking a break for the summer. Those are the church and the library. I've already stopped working at the library and I have through at least mid- June for the church. Lane Bryant is a ( Read more... )

Sitting in my office at the church right now waiting for Robert, the pastor, to get here to we can chat and then I have to get out of here so I can be at the library for 4:30. I finished my church work so I figured since I haven't updated for a while I'd do that ( Read more... )

What a good time I've had this weekend. Sadly it came to an end. Yesterday I met Mike at the Newton Centre T stop that's right down the road from ANTS. We haven't seen each other in 3 weeks so it was like meeting each other for the first time ever. I was so nervous. Like a little girl, lol. We got to his aunts house and then went next door to a ( Read more... )

Mike and I are breaking up. It hasn't happened yet because I keep holding on, but I think I need to let go. Nothing is changing. A year ago if this was going on he would be doing everything possible to convince me to stay with him. He would have taken the T to come see me at work and showed up with flowers. He would have written me a letter ( Read more... )

Like I always say......it's a roller coaster. Things are bad again. I'm fighting to keep this relationship together and he's just letting it go. On my drive to youth group tonight I really began to consider that it's not going to work. I can't always be the one fighting. Today he didn't even bother to call me. I called him for a second time on my ( Read more... )

Since my last entry my mood has changed a lot. I am not extremely upset by Mike's moving to Cambridge to be in a group home. Of course I wish it didn't have to happen, however I know it's for the best. I knew this before, but I couldn't get past the hurt I'd feel when he left. It was easy and I cried a lot saying goodbye.....but then he looked at ( Read more... )