So, I went back and read through the old logs of this thing.

Wow, I had an interesting freshman year, I had a great one. It was the best. This year, I threw alot away but I honed in my skills and gained faith and wisdom.

This might work out. But I still regret some things.

Well, this is the second time this has happened to me. It's really starting to suck and get annoying. -sighs- I hate it when people try to warn me and I don't believe them then they turn out to be right. I am just a backup-guy.

Oh well, I guess third times a charm?

So I guess I know how much our friendship meant. I guess 95% of the people I talked to were right. This kills me. But I made a promise that that would be my last attempt to try to fix things. It's not worth it anymore. It causes to much pain ( Read more... )

So tonight was the cast party for The Chorus Linebackers. It was awesome. We had a theme of a High School Prom since the show is based on High Schoolers. It was awesome. I took over 70 photos. Most of them were or Blank Stare (which is an awesome new local band). They were awesome. Three of the members (Adam, Evan, and TJ) were in the show too. ( Read more... )

Yeah, good feeling left. I just heard this song, so then I got it. It'sby Rise Against. It's called "Swing Life Away". I looked up the lyrics and listened to it again. For some reason, I got real upset. I don't know why. I guess I'm just really lonely and just realized it. I think I'm going to make the song my xanga song... ever since I wrote that ( Read more... )

I'm trying so hard to stay strong. I can't believe he's gone without a goodbye. I'm so upset ( Read more... )

I miss her so much... I'm on the phone with her RIGHT NOW and she has no idea I'm typing this. I just wish I could tell her in words how much I miss her more than I already have. If only I could show her how much I mean it. But I don't know how nor do I think it would affect her ( Read more... )

Ok, so today blew major chunks. We were all supposed to meet at the mall (Andy, Ambie, Sunni, Kacy, and I) and hang out. Well, Ambie gets there first then Andy shows up. Things aren't going well becuase they were bothing acting funny. Then Sunni and Kacy show up and we were all having a good time for a while until Ambie started talking about ( Read more... )

Ok, so things are better now. I think I was spazzing too easily that day. But man, I just realized how lucky I am to have the friends I have. You guys rock. I <3 you guys. Especially all the ones I've made in doing theater, you guys keep me going all the time. I've grown close to alot of you. It means alot. Well guys, I have tons of work to do... ( Read more... )

I hate High School. I hate High School relationships. No matter how hard you try to keep friendships from relationships they just don't work. I'm trying so hard. I can't help the jealousy I get. Trust me, if I could, I would. My hands are shaking. I'm not sure if it's because of sleep deprevation or just nerves and sadness. I don't want to lose one ( Read more... )