I hate everything right now. Parts of yesterday were so shitty im shockingly not going to put it in here. Right now is so shitty i dont want to type about it either. I hate me and justin being broken up. I'm sorry i hurt him. I'm sorry he doesnt know it was something that will turn out to be good. I hate that you hurt justin. If i could take your ( Read more... )

Today i saw sharon kay. the same pyschic or medium that i had seen more than a yr. ago, in october or november. She had said things at the time that didnt make sense but now they do. and the things she said today took my by surprise. she knew things. most of what she said was good. most. she said i would have a loving husband and children and that ( Read more... )

Funny thing..so i guess meghan tried to get on livejournal and read pples blogs and what not. and she said when she got to mine, she couldnt evne read all of it because it sounded so cnfusing and ADD that she had no idea what i was talking about! HA. maybe thats true, i understand it ( Read more... )

Ok so, for as long as i can remember ive wanted what most girls want. I wonderfully sweet, caring, lovingn guy whos crazy about me. ive often thought, i want my boyfreind to just worship the ground i walk on. Well....Although all these things are good for a boyfreind to have. Ive discovred a snag in this demand......NO GIRLY GUYS. NO PUSSYS PLEASE ( Read more... )

I broke up with justin on Saturday for the 2nd time. This week, weekend including has been the worst fuckin weekend ive honestly had in...oh a yr. I cant think of when ive had such a terrible week in a long time. My grandmother died, and i broke up with justin in the middle of her viewing/funeral, because he just wasnt there. I had left my purse at ( Read more... )

So im not 115. im still fat, its finally hit my boobs so those are bigger. but i can def. feel all this fat. its terrible. and its all my fault. tho ive tried its been half assed and in frequent. School starts next wedndesday. Then recruitment in 2 weeks. This semester i will be busting my ass all semester. Going to all my classes, participating ( Read more... )

dear me,
u used to be skinny and around 115. Get back to me when u are.

-sincerely fatty

so its one of those days. ive battled depression all my life and its one of those days for me. where..i dont wanna do anything and i feel like i cant do antything. but...alas i might actually..whats that..get my ass up and force myself to do the things i wanna do. such as tan and work out and clean my room. cexpt for the 1st time in yrs. there no ( Read more... )

just got done watching saved by the bell..the very last one where zach and kelly get married. It sounds gay but it made me all sad. i hate when things end even tho they have too. then they tried to show the very next episode being before they got back together when zach was in college trying to get with this annoying blonde girl. i turned it off, ( Read more... )

im getting frusterated. i feel like a disgusting fat ass everyday. how long can this go on? i weighed myself today and it said 138...what the fuck. ppl say i look healthy. i dont feel healthy. i dont feel heatlthy. im going to my therapist tommorow to discuss this. im starting to think i need to go back on a 1500 calorie diet. because i havent, ( Read more... )