I serenly carress your inner arm. I cannot fathom how exactly it became so perfect. I keep thinking that I should be happy. I cannot forget the daily burning of spoons and syringes, but sometimes I think that I could. The pain seems like it might go away sometime soon, but I know that it never will. The dull headache keeps growing with intensity. I ( Read more... )

He's rambling on about some relationship he had in the past as I take off my belt. Hes going on about how much she meant to him, how they connected on a level surpassing any girl. How she might not have been attractive to anyone else, but she was the most beautiful person in the world. Im remembering how ugly she was as I tighten the belt around my ( Read more... )

The increased frequencies keep me up at night. I cant wait until Im older, then I wont be able to hear the generators anymore. Nothing really ever feels the same anymore afterwards. I close my eyes, lean back. I always expect the wall to be there, and for it to save me. A slight trickle of blood runs down my arm. I could use an antiseptic, but I ( Read more... )

We used to sit in the apartment where I lived, We would talk about how we were socialists, or nihilists, or humanitarians. We Would snort heroin, because none of us liked needles. Fire and spoons made up essential elements of life. And Vodka. Vodka means water in Russian, and like water it fueled all life. I would ponder where exactly in my ( Read more... )

Giving up is the first step. I cant remember how long ago it was, years? Months? I suppose hope is really gone. Walking through the dark alleys, rye swimming around in my blood. The night sky only barely visible through the cascade of buildings. I always said it would end like this, and no one would listen. All those trips through melancholia ( Read more... )

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So Bush won. That seems about right, natural if you will. The American empire is reaching its close, things are about to fall apart. Our empire lasted from the late 1800's until the 70's, bravo. Every empire ends, most badly. Take for example the Roman Empire. They conquered most of Europe and the middle east, and some of Africa, but in the end, ( Read more... )