I don't even know what to say anymore. I'm so confused. There are hints of relief, longing, bewilderment, hope, and sadness all in my mind. I wish I didn't think about him so much. He told me he loves me and still wants to be with me, but doesn't think that things are going to work out. I feel the same. I can't help but wish for the best though. ( Read more... )

Sorry to go back to my old, gloomy self again, but I just can't help it! My love life has hit a new low and I feel like there's nothing I can do to get myself out of it right now. I wish I could have fallen in love later... at like 23 or so. If we could only set up our lives the way we want to ( Read more... )

I honestly think there's one person in the world I absolutely hate. I hate her for what she is, what she does, and what she thinks. She believes she's invincible, but one day she will be proven wrong. Very wrong. And I know this is horrible, but I wish she could learn her lesson once and for all and stop trying to be so goddamned cute all the time ( Read more... )

Yes. And I ask myself, "Self, why do you care so much?" And the inevitable answer is, "Because I care about others." It's true. I put everyone else ahead of myself. Like it even matters. Where the fuck has that gotten me? I get ignored or neglected by the one person for whom I'd do anything. I know he's immature and this is all just a big joke. But ( Read more... )

"Nikoleta, you're not more important than me."I know that. But I do think I'm more important than other things. I do think that your pedal board can wait and I think you can stick your clothes in the dryer while you're talking to me. And to top it off, I do think that your girlfriend should have some kind of priority over your friends, especially ( Read more... )

Lately, I've been feeling like nothing is worth the effort. Not school, not work, not my social life. I just feel that everything I do is fruitless and every day is just the same old shit over and over again. I need excitement and a new outlook on life. I need to be more free-spirited, but at the same time, grounded by a few close friends. Does ( Read more... )

I just wanted to take a moment and reflect on the wonderful movie I saw last night: Garden State. It's so good! The story, the emotion, the connection to your own life... I mean, I was wishing that I could have a relationship like that. With someone who's completely your opposite but complements you so well. I guess it's so beautiful because it's ( Read more... )

I don't know what's up with me today... or lately for that matter. I feel so down and stressed out even though there's nothing to worry about. I dream a lot, too. Every single night this week I've had a crazy dream that freaks me out in some way. I don't like it one bit. And I just feel like sitting here all day and never leaving... not to go to ( Read more... )

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