why do i have such a desire to change myself this summer? i guess i think my current incarnation is a failure that i've let get carried away. i have to change because what i have now is ... insufficient. for once i don't have to escape people; just myself.

would it be evil to enjoy the failures and depression of others? it's like a warm gratifying glow of gloom that when i read the entries i do not feel sorry for the people or have any desire to help them. in fact, its like reading the funny pages. the hard part is finding the non sequitors like gough and avoiding cathys like.. yeah. some people ( Read more... )

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and if there is not any such thing as a long time, nor the rest of your lives, nor from now on, but there is only now, why then now is the thing to praise, and i am very happy ( Read more... )

why do i always try to fuel old flames ( Read more... )

i have gotten myself a job.

i can feel the world ooze and throb at this new event. for further details, inquire. (post a message, please)

in another note, how do you ask someone to notice you? can you arrange for someone to acknowledge yoru existence? am i doing it now?

why?

all i want to do is sleep. i can't stand this life.

in my dreams yesterday i became a vampire.

you know, i'm really happy i don't have girlfriend right now. this freedom is really nice. i can fuck up in any number of ways and only have one person to answer to about it : me ( Read more... )

i'm officially bitter now, and i take back my whole wanting to die before i'm 27

i now want to live until at least 80, and i'm now counting the days until i'm 40 so i can look back and bitch about all this like it wasn't yesterday.

-das

i colour coded my friends

yay