I passed my "pre"-jury today...      i can't believe it. 
I think i did well on my history final...

I can't believe what i've done elsewhere...            I lost complete control of my life almost 2 months ago, and I just now realized it..

I've made a huge mistake...        how do I face this?

today.. has been one of the worst days of the semester so far.........                holy shit, i'm going to bed. screw this crap...       

The past few days have been like a crunch time for me, resulting in a serious fall in my immune system, freezing rainy weather, and a sinus infection that has gotten so bad that now i cannot play my clarinet or oboe.. and i have both a playing test and a lesson today.. woot.. dr. heavner is gonna love this one.. damnit.

the master class went well ( Read more... )

So somehow, i have managed to improve so much on my clarinet playing that the head of the woodwind studio selected me to do the masterclass thing.. hoot.. I've really focused alot, and although i'm still behind, i'm getting better. The concert was awesome too ( Read more... )

So things have hit a plateau of difficulty.. which doesn't mean that it gets any easier! haha ( Read more... )

"Because girls are made of sugar and spice and everything nice and boys are made of vinegar and shit ( Read more... )

yeah.. so years and years and years of struggling and fighting just to go to school because my family is not financially stable has just come to a head and i'm tired of walking up the hill.. so i think i'm just going to jump off ( Read more... )

Why is this so hard?
Why can't i let go?
What in the hell is going on with my life?
Sometimes I feel like God just forgot.. where are the other explanations?..

I feel so lost. And i'm losing hope that i'm ever going to get a degree..

God i hate my life.

so first of all, I cannot handle my brothers and my mother anymore. My mother doesn't care about anyone but herself. She doesn't give a damn about raising her children, let alone the fact that they're acting like idiots, dealing drugs, fighting, all that bullshit.. so now i try to protect my brother, and he turns on me just to protect his ( Read more... )

Wow it has been a REALLY long time since i've updated on this thing. SO! let's catch up ( Read more... )