Comments | spazandahalf: I feel like I'm fading.....

spazandahalf

I feel like I'm fading.....

Feb 20, 2005 23:13

I dont know whats wrong with me. I was sitting in bed talking to Tony as usual when suddenly I was hit with this unbearable thought... I started crying, and I had to hang up with Tony and get this all out....I have lost all my friends. You can go ahead and say "oh we still love you, why do you think we hate you?" but stop and think... when was the ( Read more... )

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seventypigeons February 20 2005, 23:44:14 UTC

Let's go skydiving together.

fire_in_my_eye February 20 2005, 23:58:51 UTC

it's not the fact i have a truck.... its the fact that i cant stand that school anymore. ever since roberson got fired shit went to hell and i dont wanna be around that anymore. which is why i only come for 3 classes. its not that i dont want to be friends! its not that at all. its the school. it did hurt like alot when you told me you were leavin BCAL..i didnt know what to think and i think you are STILL planning to leave and i guess im trying to not let that get to me cuz i know im gunna be cryin when you do leave. dont say im going to forget you cuz thats a lie. i can never forget you! we're the mooshies remember? even tho tj left....meh.it seems like when i try to talk to you online, you never seem to want to talk to me. like you just want me to go away and it leaves me confused every time. and i DO TRY TO CALL YOU. but no one ever ever EVER answers...so i pretty much gave up on that. i love you heather..you're one of my best friends. this sucks ( ... )

puckoracle February 21 2005, 00:25:36 UTC

honestly...i was up at a friends house this weekend....and
1. i mad a list of all teh people at bcal that i actually like (all of 8 of them as it turns out) and you were #2
2. seeing as i was bord enought to make a list like that..i was onlie looking at picks of the greenday lead singer and concert info for novenber and on this one pic of him with his eyes all opened and sht i said to caitlyn (the person whos house i was at) that i have this friend that has these bad ass eyes that can change that color sometimes.

spazandahalf February 21 2005, 14:46:51 UTC

thanks maddie.... i was never mad at you... i love you too much ^^

darkfaerie07 February 21 2005, 11:24:24 UTC

aw heather...the fact that i have been distant lately is cuse i can't stand much anymore. i still love you to pieces...which is why i am getting everyone(well girls that is) from our old group last year(you, tj, katie, kiah and jacey) over for a girls night. i miss everyone and how we were last year...plus i need to get away from emily...i know that might sound mean but she is way to clingy!!!! it's not that i don't like you heather. i love you. it's just that i need to get away from everything. i'm sorry if i have became distant in the process. that one night that we talked on the phone reminded me of old times. i miss the old times. i'm sorry again. i love you heather. you are one of my closest friends EVER and i never want to lose you.

spazandahalf February 21 2005, 14:48:49 UTC

sorry i went on this rant.... i feel bad now that ive writen it.... sorry guys... i miss you all....

darkfaerie07 February 22 2005, 15:36:09 UTC

aw no worries heather...we all love you and you should really get all that out of you instead of bottling up inside of you. trust me...i've done that/doing that...it sucks so get it all out hun. luv ya.