everyones journal is cool. mine is kinda gay. oh well. it is weird i go on the internet a lot nopw. i guess taht is what happens when you dont have a job. i wish i did. i need money. well school is almost here. that is sooo scray. i hate school. last year i always left i was never really there. i get out early now though so maybe it wont suck that ( Read more... )

auto trader comes out today. i am so freaking excited. see another reason to love friday. i hope i find a car i dont want to drive the mitshubishi to school i will cry. no one better make in fun of me. i will beat them up. hehe so summer is almost over which sucks ass. i hate school. i only have 5 periods but i get out at 4th. yeah! i hope this ( Read more... )

oh yeah a car. like a integra.

i swear it always seems that when it comes to writting in the live journal it is sad. that might be a good thing though at least i dont keep it all in and like all of a sudden shatter like glass. i wish i was a stronger person. someone who could be happy no matter what negativity comes there way. i cant be though. not with my dad. i really honestly ( Read more... )

hey everyone. dont you hate it when you have one of those days that you analze everything and you think god my life sucks! thats me today yeah! right! i dunno i just have a lot of shit wrong with me but hey who likes whinners well no one actually. so i am happy for matt and laura that is really cool. i am excited about going to teh bad religon ( Read more... )

i really need to keep updating this thing i swear. well since nick and matt left to tahoe i have made new friends. actually a lot. by the names of nikki kira laura marten and so on. they are all really nice group of people. i am glad i have gotten to know them. i am so entirely bored and lonely though. i miss nick so terribly much he will be home ( Read more... )

i am going out of my mind. I have nothing to do. I hate this with a passon. what am I gunna do. I wish nick wasnt at snow summit i would have something to do. actually i hope he and matt have a great time. i have a lot of fun w/my mom as sad as that sounds. i love the girl we have so much fun hanging out. yesterday we went to cosco and sports mart ( Read more... )

well i went to the doc's and found out i have plarris or something like that. so its all good. it's weird i love living out here but, i miss all my friends. if i lived in the estates i would have so much fun. i love the estates i dont know why. everything is going great. not a problem in the world. so i guess that is good. i am scard my play is ( Read more... )

ever since i was little i ate all the time. i never gained weight. i was a average normal skinny girl. then why would i all of a sudden stop eating and exercise all the time? where did it come from? was it hidding in there all this time waiting to come out? i used to be a happy kid. now all i do is not eat and exercise. i have gone from fitting ( Read more... )

i feel like shit and the doctor says oh you have the flu i think! good bye. they took blood to tell me that. i dont think so. doctors dont care about patients good enough anymore they want to just get through the day. well fuck them. i'm dieing w/the flu and i want to quit my job so i will no matter how many people call me lazy i hate k-mart. well ( Read more... )