another awesomely retarded post from ryan. Well whats a new bad thing in ryans life right now? Well pretty much everything I guess. Still tired of always putting on a happy face for e everyone, still tired of having to act somewhat happy, and just plain ole tired. I'm a fucking idiot when it comes to women, I either get to close to them or i ( Read more... )

been a good while since ive done this, dunno who still read shit i put in here but yeah. Just got really quit, might be a cop here, o well, later

John Wayne

You scored 28% Tough, 23% Roguish, 23% Friendly, and 19% Charming!

You, my friend, are a man's man, the original true grit, one tough ( Read more... )

its sad how the only time i feel like i should updat my lj is when i feel like total shit. When I feel like theres nothing left to live for. Jesus christ i need help. I really do. OH and thanx to lauren and kyndal and tori for leaving me tonight and trying to make it SEEM like its better off if you leave because it makes it easier for things ( Read more... )

im seriously tired of who i am. I'm tired of the way i act, the things i do, the things i say, I'm just so fucking sick of it. I try to change myself but for some reason it just seems so hard to do. Tonight I realized that most of my friends havent given or dont give me that much respect and I finally realized why. I'm a dumbass, annoying, ( Read more... )

merrah........ i seriously need to just focus on just working and chilling at home now. I need to save so much money and i still have nothing to show for it, its sad. I also want to just stay in for awhile because I'm tired of being let down or disappointed with things like girls for instance. I mean yeah theres a certain someone I really like ( Read more... )

MAstadon last night. Fucking amazing. Then I get online today and tis was liek the first pop up add i got and holy shit i alsmot died Leave a comment

I've been feeling really empty lately and I have no idea why. It sucks. I've had to leave while hanging out with some friends recently just because I felt so empty. I've been getting back into writing. Wish I could write like I used to. Heres the most recent thing I've done ( Read more... )

Past 2 days have been nuts. Worked friday from 7 in the morning till almost 6 in the afternoon, moving and laying stones(very tiring and muscle aching work). I find out Richbourg still cant find out whats wrong with my damn car after I already paid them 200 bucks to fix it. Josh didnt pick me up till almost 9 that night but we chilled with my ( Read more... )

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