Holy god I've never been so sick for so long in my entire life. I keep having back and forth fevers, it feels like i have an ear infection in both of my ears, nose is completely stuffed and I've been blowing out really thick and hard mucus shit thats been scaring the hell out of me, my neck and throat are so soar I can't sleep, it feels like most ( Read more... )

Why must I dwell on things? Why can't I just sit down, relax, and not have to worry about a fuckin thing? And why do I act so annoying and aggervating when I'm happy sometimes? I just want to be able to smile and actually have a real smile behind it, not one thats forced. I do have some great friends, but why do most of them act like they don't ( Read more... )

I now know that god is seriously mocking me. I'm never supposed to remain totally happy for more then a few hours. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO KEEP BEING TREATED LIKE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!

Damn I havent updated in ages. Felt I needed to do it tonight for some reason. Havent been too well over the past few months. Schools been killin me and getting aggervating, i've been looking for a job every other day and still no success, I feel one of my bestest friend is starting to get annoyed and aggervated with me therefore him acting ( Read more... )

i need to go back to my old roots and also stay away from greatloving couples

Got drunk tonight. Needed to get rid of the left over shit i had from new years. For some reason i lose my buzz very easily and too soon. Anyways, im at amanda's house right now just chillen. I feel i've grown a little bit closer to her to a good friend bond. Feels good, shes really awesome. Just wish this drama shit didnt have to happen ( Read more... )

Christmas was pretty good, ate WAY too much. Supposed to go fishing tonight, i hope that will work out. If its still all nasty and rainy tonight then im not going. I finally got a bazooka tube for my car. Got it for christmas, wish i could hook it up. Dont have any of the wires to do it with, i might get some with the 10 dollar gift certificate ( Read more... )

fuck work. Seriously its pretty much all i do now and i hate it with a god damn passion. 40 hours a week. And whenever i do get free time im either running errands or doing gumb shit for my folks. All i want to do is start another band. I've been DIEING To get on stage again anfd perform. I've been writing a lot when i get home but i have no ( Read more... )

WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK!!!!!!! seems thats all i've been doing lately and then when i get some time off those days turn into shit as well. Halloween was the worst though. Worked, got off work, went downtown, no one there, go to johns new place, ponder on going to jax, go to jax with a girl named ashley and a guy named dillan which by the way ( Read more... )

I've been missing people a lot lately. Not people in general but like 2 people to be specific. I mean i talk to them still ever so often but i never get to see them at all. I don't think i've ever missed this one person as much as i do. She's just so amazing and i love talking to her and being around her. She always has something to say and she ( Read more... )