I just don't get it... why? nothing makes sence anymore i wish i could talk to *them* Why does it seem like i'm always doing something wrong around *them*? why do *they* treat me like this now?

I really didnt do nething this time n yet it still fucking fallowed me. Whatever i do its always gonna fallow me. I'm sick of it n can't take it nemore. I just wanna go through life n not always second guess EVERY FUCKING THING. I don't know what to do nemore, theres no1 to turn to or to talk to. I thought i could talk to one of my friends since ( Read more... )

i saw it slipping through my fingers but now its too late, if i only had done something when it started it might not of ended this way. but i made the mistake of pushing every1 and everything away... too late now. this applies to so much going on right now. i miss how shit used to be ( Read more... )

wow its been way to long since i last updated. Well NYC was amazing i wanna go back again, me n dena have so many stories from there like it takes 2 to put cream cheese on 1 bagel. I came back n there was drama but fuck it i give up fighting for a friendship that he doesn't want nemore, the funniest part of the fight with him was him saying he ( Read more... )

SHIT SHIT SHIT!! no not now, shit, y??? AHHH! i REALLY need to talk to my mommy (dena) b4 i have a complete break down but she doens't feel well so i'll have to wait till tomorrow but shit i need to talk to her cuz i might need her help with something. SHIT it'll probably b barron. but i'm hopeing Naples, lely, or palmeto (sp?)ridge (doubtfull) ok ( Read more... )

wow really good day :) ( dena knows who nd what i'm talking about lol ) btw dena did i add no1 was home? :) but then chris had to go n text me GRRRRR chris has REALLY REALLY REALLY bad timing cuz he kind of ruined it. Oh well i think we might hang out again tomorrow afternoon b4 i go to the play :). i have a feeling tomorrow will b a good day to ( Read more... )

BTW:: DENA FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME I AM NOT TAKING UR MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!! keep it for when we go to newyork or something or spend it on something 4 u idc but i'm NOT taking ur money lol

sorry every1 i just had to make that clear to dena b4 she tried once again to give me the money that SHE earned.

My dad just got back from the funneral n just so many things just still don't add up, what he wrote in the note and the way he always acted just don't make sense ( Read more... )

for the record b4 ne1 else askes that last entry was about nicole not ne1 else i'm not mad at ne1 besides nicole. sorry for ne confusion

wow where to start?? theres been so much going on, way too much dram n i'm sick of it all. I'm suppose to b @ Phil's funneral right now but i feel like shit so i couldn't go, i really wanted to go n i feel bad but theres nothing i can do. Even after all the fights n being blown off i still like *him* why??? after everything hes put us through i ( Read more... )