Yes I'm still alive. Yes I'm still breathing no I really don't have anything to really write about. I needed something to do while the server for my online game is down temporarily so I figured I'd blog that I'm still here. ttfn and call if ya want.

So here I am at home watching the clock tick time away waiting for the time to be ripe for me to shower to go to work. Reflecting on my life recently and realizing that I am quite unhappy and am desperately in need of friends again. Life was going alright for a while their I had gotten back together with my ex and we were making an effort to try ( Read more... )

So guess I did a wonderful job of doing my disappearing act again. I'm good at that. No personal grudge towards anyone just didn't feel like doing much of anything. But alas here I am writing another LJ entry just to say I would like to no that I want too get back into the real game of life. These on-line virtual worlds are fun and all and I made ( Read more... )

So I'm still alive and kicking visit with the doc netted an actual diagnosis I have been found to be suffering from Hypomania it's kinda like a milder version of Bi-polar so as a result I was prescribed some Mood Stabilizers namely Depakote 125mg... little pink pills that I take three times a day. And boy let me tell ya some days I just sit and ( Read more... )

So tommorrow I go to my psychiatrist for the first time to hopefully get me on some kind of meds that'll help me control my mood swings easier. Not going to lie to anyone I really hope they do. I been living in a seriously fucked up state for the past week... I somehow managed to resolve my own depression but instead I ended up being somewhere ( Read more... )

As the story goes odin sacrificed one eye and hung upside-down from the tree of knowledge to gain wisdom. As a friend said "Of course you need to examine the roots of knowledge to understand wisdom ( Read more... )

Madness... that's what happened pure madness... I fell into the black hole of my mind and was forced to reconcile with myself about the past and all the harsh things I did or said... I was forced to to either accept my problem or forever be lost in my own mind... And I reemerged from the far gates of hell to find that yes indeed I was not who I ( Read more... )

Of course the comment was made why haven't I been keeping up with my social commentary on my life and well In classic self-denial fashion. I say their wwas no particular reason. But guess I owe peeps the truth. Well it all starts simply that me and my ex whom I haven't spoken too in two years start talking again. Then a week later I found myself ( Read more... )

So another hurdle in the game of life hits me yet again. I got a letter from the college saying that I am ineligible for finacial aid because of my poor academic standing at the end of the last school year I attended... which would have been Fall of 2003. All I can say is that at that time in my life I was attending MCC under less than ideal ( Read more... )

Okay so of all things that can happen to mess with one's head I have drilling and screaming through my skull some kind of messed up combo of KoRn and NIN. I am listen alternately to trent saying "I tried and I gave up" and Johnathan Davis screaming "Why don't you get the fuck out of my face" so yes the songs for today are NIN-Gave Up and Korn-Good ( Read more... )