Well here I am again, stuck between a rock and a hard place. I love Chris, I really do. I want to be with him so badly, but more than that I was to be HAPPY with him. He tells me I make him happy, and for awhile, just knowing you make someone you care for happy, is enough to make you happy to, but slowly you want more, and I always feel so guilty ( Read more... )

Yep, so I have been up since like 8:30 after Chris left for work..(he left earlier than that) and I have been putting cd's on my iPod..I never realized how many cd's I had. I still haven't figured out how to use the belkin thingy for my car..radio, yeah I can't turn it on..I am not stupid, I just can't figure it out.....gr ( Read more... )

Well hello there. Ok, so last night we did dinner at my Uncle Jim's, and then went to a holiday thin at te Royal's, and this morning I went to my dad's and did presents there, and then to my Grand mothers with my mom, and Jonathan showed up and then he and I went to my Uncle Chucks for a few hours, and missed dinner with my dad and step mom. I feel ( Read more... )

I am at Chris', on his computer 'cause I left mine at home. Yesterday he drove to Laconia, and met me at my work, I went home sick and broken. I am on crutches, Thursday night I got up in the middle of the night because I was sick to my stomach, and I managed to tear a few ligaments in my knee. So now I have this imobilizer strapped on my leg, and ( Read more... )

Chris is a poop. Lol, Apparently he fell asleep. I called and his mom told me he was sleeping, and had been for some time. Oh well. I'm rather bored. Oh well ( Read more... )

I know I shouldn't get upset like this over stupid things, but what can I say, I am a girl, that overanalyzes EVERYTHING...So here's my lastest thing that brought me to tears.. today is Tuesday, the day I usually go to Chris'. He has to work at 6 in the AM, until 1, and then he has testing at school from 2-5, and then he has a meeting 7:30-8:30, ( Read more... )

Ok, so it's been awhile, Chris moved into the new house in Lebanon, it's nice, I really like it ( Read more... )

So last night I got out of work, picked up Marie, and then her and I drove to Barnstead and picked up Trisha and her boyfriend Jeff. The four of us made our way to Jeff's brother Paul's house to hang out with him and his girlfriend Millisa, cool way to spell it I think, but yeah anyways, they were drinking I had water, because I had a really sour ( Read more... )

I love being productive in my underwear.. I just made my car payment and a partial payment on my insurance from Chris' bed. Ahhh modern day technology is so refreshing ( Read more... )

So yeah I am on the phone with Anthony, talking about how gay Monica is.. she's, well she's just grrr..She got all mad at me tonight becuase I was on the phone with Brent (one of my very best guy friends, whom she happened to have slept with on more than one occasion) and when I got off the phone she wanted to know what he said about her.. which ( Read more... )