The smile is fake
I wear it to appease
What I wouldn't give to scream
To cry
To release
Abandonment is torture
Understanding is worse
Tiredly facing each day
Aching for something to give
Wanting to fade away
Into nothing
A laugh rings out
Never to touch my being
A smile appears
Never to reach my eyes

I used to be able to express my thoughts through my writing quite fluidly. Mainly because I had gone over and over the point repeatedly enough that every angle had been well thought and planned out and finally writing it down was like a final draft. I still dwell over everything in my head, but the ease with which I can write things out has been ( Read more... )

Another semester has come and gone, but this one is different. This time I"m losing people. Some of my closest people. I haven't really thought about it yet, and probably won't until after they are really gone from Starkville. It makes me sad because after next semester I won't have anyone. It's not like I can call Marielle up because she'll be out ( Read more... )

I am ready for love ( Read more... )

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....just too freaking busy ( Read more... )

I've never understood why throughout my life my closest friends, mostly girls, have come to me with relationship advice. Not saying that I give horrible relationship advice, it's actually quite good, but because I have no relationship experience. I think it may be because when I'm not sprouting off complete nonsense on something, I am able to look ( Read more... )

ok, so i'm just going to say it flatout. i have lost my will power to say no to junk that i don't need to eat, and it's making me really annoyied. i have 2 more months of weight loss left that i'm just throwing down the drain, and i just can't stop myself anymore. and it's not that i don't want to, but i can't. i've been witholding for 8 months now ( Read more... )

ONE ( Read more... )

I had a lot of fun this weekend. Yeah, so I know turning 21 is highly overrated, but I enjoyed it ( Read more... )