Its 5:30 in the morning and I haven’t slept a wink. So far I have finished a novel, watched a movie, wrote out a few dates and to dos in my organizer, surfed the net looking for vintage aprons and done some laundry … well that I am still doing.

Insomnia is a symptom of depression so let’s not beat around the bush here anymore. I have let myself get ( Read more... )

As a parent I am very fullfilled, my favourite past time now is just watching my son.  It doesn't matter if he is asleep, awake, upset or happy.  I can not get bored with this litte man.  Its funny I thought my life was complete before I had Sascha, but looking in retrospect I see that I was searching for this kind of happiness.  Its ironic that I ( Read more... )

Here I was today eager for the weekend too start and then during my lunch break it has hit me that I am not going to get a chance to rest on this weekend even though I do desperately need it ( Read more... )

Long days like today make my 18 days until maternity leave seem so far away.  I hate it when my supervisor is on a power trip and must have you explain every task you have have planned for the day in the smallest detail.  So they feel jusitifed in telling you when you must have these deadlines completed by even though they haven't taken an interest ( Read more... )

Its the pregnancy hormones, but I believe I am going crazy.  I have 6 weeks left until the expected arrival of my first born.  I have organised the baby shower when I will be 37 weeks so I could go into labour before or even during the party.  Wouldn't that be a great party trick.  I am returning to work on Monday from two weeks of annual leave and ( Read more... )

I keep getting that rush of expectation, like somethings going to happen but I don't quite know yet what it is.  I normally get this feeling before something happens.  Its like a gut feeling, always got it since I was little.  I wonder what events lie ahead.

I was approached by a complete stranger the other day, a male stranger as well I might add, at the elevators in my work building.  He kept looking at my belly, I could see him doing this and ignored him.  It must of got the better of him because then he said to me 'your very low, so you are ready to have the baby soon!'.  I found this amusing as I ( Read more... )

I am now looking at day care for my little fetus,  as the waiting lists are normally a year long and I will be returning to full time work in about Juneish next year.  Its getting me down the thought of leaving him for the whole day with strangers.  The thought doesn't really sit well with me.

On Sunday night I was at a friends house anticipating the return of Aaron because we were going to order some fish and chips when he got back.  When he walked through the door I said 'ready to order?' He said 'Some b%$*h has reversed into the side of our car!'.  My first thought was if he had the ability to repond like that then he must be ok, my ( Read more... )

On a day when i am looking and feeling very pregnant my gp asks "are you still pregnant?"