Mom ( Read more... )

Christmas was wonderful.

Last night sucked.

What else could go wrong?

Oh, I could thing of alot of things.

I'm sick of being sick.

I'm tired of being tired.

I need a fucking vacation.

I just need to get away from EVERYTHING.

Away from this place, maybe just for a day.

I'm done complaining.

Painters ( Read more... )

It's christmas week. : /

That's all I have to say.

I didn't get president.

I also threw up at the meeting. Like I burped, and then I felt like I was gonna be sick. So, I ran to the bathroom, and tossed the one meal I had of the day.

I got VP of Administration though. Still, it's not president. My heart was in my throat throughout the time leading up to the announcement of my defeat. That probably ( Read more... )

My little sister called me yesterday.

It made me feel really horrible about not even wanting to visit them for christmas. But why would I want to go there when I know I wouldn't even be able to pull into the driveway? The first thing that I would think about would be all the hurtful, mean and nasty things she said to me. It would totally just ( Read more... )

I had a good weekend.

This week should mirror it.

(if it knows what's good for it)

I have this song stuck in my head, so I'm just gonna type it all out.

One year ago today, I tossed away a quarter that I should have saved. I faked a farewell fantasy and misbehaved. I never made an effort. My conscience went. After all the time I spent. The dollars that I dropped on you, I thought you'd say you miss me too.

So here I am, a ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a bit better than I have been.

I just got back from Leah's house.

Jan and Leah were both talking to me online on Wednesday night, and they both said some very nice things. It's good to know that you have friends that are there for you one way or another. I slept very much like a rock after that.

Today, I got Leah 5 green balloons,  ( Read more... )

Yeah, so I guess it's time for an update.

I'm still feeling really shitty, and tired all the time. I'm having trouble trying to figure out, just what exactly is wrong with me. If it's not one thing, it's another.

I just keep thinking about all the things in the future that are unavoidable, and all of the things that are going to happen that I have ( Read more... )