weekend update:
mere and i are birthday crashers.
ive smoked and drank way too much.
and lola broke. mere dropped her.

i'm doing it again. im binging on the same song and im thinking about some boy i know i hold higher than he probably is and make sure things will never get serious. but they always do and i always fuck it up. do i fuck things up with this one ( Read more... )

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last year ryan came running into save-a-lot one evening to tell me he got a job. and then he leaned forward to kiss me but i couldnt do that in front of all those people ( Read more... )

you cant change what someone thinks.

i dont know what it is but i feel as though i've got cancer and no one wants to touch me. no one wants to go out to eat with me. no one minds that i'm not at school. and most of the people i dont talk to on a regular basis have this crazy idea that i hate them, that i dont enjoy their company anymore, or that i'm mad at them ( Read more... )

we're gonna go to laguna and we're gonna be best friends again, right?

ok i love boys that sneak over at 2 in the morning.
but who am i kidding? when dont boys sneak over?

i'm going to conclude that i have mono -- because everything i described in the last entry is back. oh, and i think smoking irritates it, but i'm too high too care.