since halloween, i have turned into a vampire. i have been going to bed at dawn and when the sun is setting i rise. the best feeling is when i wake in the midday and see that the sun is getting dim and i can turn over pull the blankets around my head and expect the moon a few hours later.

like to thank everyone that celebrated the beginning of my 23th year of existence. I had a blast.

Alright something's on the horizons for me. first off i need to get out of this funk, if i can call it that. whenever i'm like "i need more people around me". i think to my childhood when much of my coping things where established by my work-a-holic, and alcoholic parents. i think that there isn't much i can do. i have found though that i ( Read more... )

yesterday was a slow descent into depression, i need to shake this.

man, yesterday was the longest day that i have had in a long long time. i had to wake up at 8:30 to work for this food bank benefit. i got paid 200 bucks for my time, and all i had to do was set up tables and chairs all morning. i got there around 10 and had to wait around for an hour till all the stuff was delivered so i was getting paid 15 ( Read more... )

something was running in and out
and, i saw the sun and the moon
many times i said i wouldn't, and
all the others i did.

my will speaks the truth, and
my heart sometimes aches.
something happened along the way.
i have gained and i have lost.

I've been so busy lately, time is moving so fast and my weeks are turning into days. I have found that sleeping a lot, is a waist of time. But, it is nice to have those morning where you wake up from a dream and can decide that it probably best to continue with that dream cause anything you do will get done later. I'm glad i got to enjoy some of ( Read more... )

Well it's monday once again. It has been a long couple of weeks for me. I can finally start my life back up again. I have been submerged deeply into the male gay world for way too long now, I went for the first and probably my last time to Club Cafe (over priced meat market, and I was a sirloin steak). I have listen to way too much Cher for my ( Read more... )

i woke up three times today before i decided to finally join reality. i was dreaming all night and i just couldn't leave it. so every time i woke up i just went back to sleep. it was so vivid, and every time i feel back to sleep it seemed that i got back into it what i left. last night i really wanted to get to sleep early and have a full day ( Read more... )

I woke late in the day yesterday after a long night of drinking. It all started soon after I got out of work. My uncle sent me to the liquor store to get him a pint of vodka and I got my self a little something, something. We then hooked up with some octy's buddies from campco, drank a few pints and proceeded to the next gathering on Glenville ( Read more... )