Well this morning i woke up after having an excellent yummy dream. I think something inside me is yearning for me to go back to fully being goth but i dunno about it cause my life isnt so goth anymore, its actually ungoth. I still have a few things from my dark days but thats about it. but back to my dream. I was in some kind of music store putting ( Read more... )

well those who i thoght would grow up seem to be doing a complete reversal. thomas now thinks hes goth and runs around like a huge goth poser. Is there such a thing? Well if not then there is now. Id like to just move away from him so far that he wouldnt be able to see Angel but i cant cause then thered be all these fucked up arrangements and id be ( Read more... )

Well today was a day to always remember! It was Angelos first birthday. He got tons of clothes and toys. thankfully there were no dupilcates. He ripped open all the presents and well decided it was better to play with all the paper then to play with all the new toys he got but it was fun. he even got to cake dive. lol. Had it all over himself. then ( Read more... )

i just wish for once my bad luck would turn to good luck.

I wish you could taste
the salt of the tears
you’ve caused.
The tears that I
taste nightly.
You abuse you hate.
I wish you could feel
all that i am
all that I
hate!

Make you fear.
Make you see my world
A world of your creating.
Dark, cold and lonely.
Where someone like you
should belong.
Hate is what I feel for you.
no love
no trust
no

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life...
by:
me

life is something that is precious and oh so fragile
its something others set out to dissrupt
its something some dont cherish
its that one thing that keeps you going
its the somber way you die

i wonder once in a while of what could have been of what might have been if we just touched. Maybe something would be yours maybe something would be mine. or something would never exhist like it already does. would my path in life be totaly altered if we had met or would i still be on this destructive path to no where fast. if you just heard me ( Read more... )

well seems who i thought was a good friend of mine isnt. Jen has told thomas a bunch of bullshit and supposedly he called child wellfare on me. Well ive got news for him, he can call them all he wants cause my house is clean angelo has plenty of food and clothes for him. and contrary to what jen has told thomas no he is not watched by her and he ( Read more... )

well it seems im finding out who my real freinds are in life. Seems that Jen who i though was a good friend of mine is telling thomas a bunch of bull shit and well hes comming at me telling me that hes going to go for full custody of Angelo and so on and that if he doesnt get what he wants then hes going to have Angelo placed in alternate placement ( Read more... )