Raghhh this day is just fuckin fantastic already, i was just reminded of what stupid day it is today!!!!! God damn shit mother fucking piece o dog ass it isn't fair nothing is fair i wanna scream till my lungs don't work, i just want to fuckin ugh i don't know. I want to drop out and go to cali, its in my head every day, every fucki day at least ( Read more... )

Ok, so here i am. I am alive,I don't know of people still read this, if they don't i guess i'm wasting my time. So yeah, yesterday i went paint balling, fuckin fun as hell. I got shot in the neck in the head, inbetween the nuckles on my right hand, i got shot in the hand and hmm in the shoulder a few times a few in the knee, i had sooooooo much fun ( Read more... )

Good bye,to the very few fans who read this depressing journal. I am done with the internet. I'm gonna just be stickin to myself from now on. The way i used to be. When i was little. I am pure evil i realise and i can do nothing right. Oh well. too late now,maybe i should have been hugged more. Maybe growing up with as much shit as i did can do ( Read more... )

Someone awake me from my slumber, Everything comes to me in bits and pieces. It all seems like i'm sleepin, parts of everyday are blury and filled with daze. With her, i was awake. My senses sharp and intact. Life was great, i was awake. She woke me up. I'm asleep again, trapped in a nightmere. Wake me up, wake me up. I'm scared with no hands to ( Read more... )

Blah, i worked a lot. Thought abou sad crap all day. I got to drive like a little bit just no, although m dad was all yellin at me on how to park.Sorry i don't gh runnin about parkin cars. Uhhh i dunno, christina visited me at wok, which was cool.I dunno i am sad. I want to give up, forever. Lets see...hmm tool is cool. Someone hug me, she hates me ( Read more... )

I could have cried then ( Read more... )

fuck the world~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i now hate the world and all of its ugliness. welcome back old tim. the guy who hated almost everything. Hah!!! yeha well my world has fallen. Here's an idea no-one cares, i hate myself more then i'v ever hated anything. bye

*sighs* i don't know what to write..fucked up again hey nothing new!!!!!!!!! I don't wanna do anything, i wanna sleep for a long long time. i have rifle practice tomarrow isn't that so fun. god i dunno, i proll ruined everything, i am scared beyond belief. Honestly terrified. So now everyone prolly knows. Now i have to hear everyones shit. i dunno ( Read more... )

hey all....yeah...well....yeah....i don't know wat to say...I'm bored. I feel empty... Uhhh i'm going to the eye doctor today to finally get my contacts i guess this is cool. I dunno.... i'm smellin somthing good from downstaires. Hm... well bye

eyes open and heart closed ( Read more... )