So is it the fact i should of died years ago god feels the need to punish me is it the fact i beat death what is it, my friends may all say be optimistic but ive been there done that and in the end is the same void and the same pain with the same nightmares i have every night and no answer why is it true im a bastard is it that i should nt of been ( Read more... )

I just moved back home yesterday and it really sucks, it does have it's advantages like clean water and internet but I miss having that freedom I had it was so cool it's what I have been missing but to live alone (or with your best friend) you really need to have some way around walking 2 miles per phone call sucks but living without rules hanging ( Read more... )

This Is My Life, RatedLife:

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Did you go outside last night it's cold beautiful cozy cold weather yes I love it some dont like the cold and the cold gets to me to but you can throw on a jacket and be ok and i love to were my beanie i went outside to smoke last night and the smell in the air just put me in a great fucking mood really you could smell the frost in the air this is ( Read more... )

I may not be sure where the road I travel on takes me did it lead to the one I need. half the man I use to be yet twice the man then the one's you see everyday wish the was a cure so I can endure till the day you know who I am your a southern bell in the depths of hell your smile lights the room and sends men to there doom and if you give me a shot ( Read more... )

Sitting here feeling numb wondering why I worry so, I never know so much always the same it never makes sense do any of my words explain this to you,to me, are they flying out my mind right now? needing more everyday asking too much of me when i should have been thinking of me . finally making the right choices time to know the difference between ( Read more... )

I mourn the life I lost in time . A time of friendship and freedom now I live my life like a caged enraged animal no meaning behind it all where did it all go,where did they all go ? If you move on must you leave what you had ? If you leave can I still believe that same trust in you ? Change is what happened to you if something changes it's not the ( Read more... )

The clock strikes nine the clock strikes ten the clock strikes me as I wake up I've been here before I felt this before I've hated this before I've loved this before yet I don't understand cause I just been born

A tear drop falls the echo of the splash sounds of the blood of a broken heart

I have power that is strong past these walls of tears that i want all to see and I feel these hollow halls and if I fall before I die I will know I was truly alive.