alright, well in a few days we will be in what will become the year 2006.
and i really don't think i can summarize 2005 in an lj post.

2005, well it was 2005.
and the most i can say is while i did create some magnificent memories,
i am not proud of some times either.

and with that being said,
i'd like to send out an apology.
an apology to every single ( Read more... )

take

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time

Admit it.
You never meant a word you said. You never meant anything at all.
You faked everything from the start, when we became "best friends."
Didn't you?...Because now it seems like nothing ever mattered to you.
It's the worst feeling in the world, feeling so oblivious to you.
Knowing that I fucked myself over so many times for you,
And you can't even ( Read more... )

Once again I've retreated to this. The past two months have been the hardest times I've ever had to experience. I had to experience them without the comfort of the person who means the most to me. The person who saved my life countless times. The person who I owe so much to. The person I call my best friend. Living life without someone like this is ( Read more... )

This is pretty much the only song that can sum up my mood right now.
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This next entry is long, but is everything I have ever wanted to say. So please don't be discouraged by the length.
( my eyes are wet with clarity )

So I'm really fucking loving how everyone is doing what they said they wouldn't. Change is occurring at an even quicker pace now that I know I'll never catch up to it. It's not like I want to anyway. I'm such a fucking sucker for trust and I'm really getting tired of being so vulnerable. My vulnerability is why I fucking care so much and worry ( Read more... )

Alright, so school started two weeks ago and I haven't even worried about it. Everyone keeps talking about how stressed they are, and I guess I would be if everything wasn't running through my head. I can't focus on anything anymore. I guess I just really don 't care. Everything's going down that same twisted path as last year. And I'm not sure if ( Read more... )

Summer...
Wow, it went by faster than I ever thought it would.
And what can I say,
This summer was a complete rollercoaster.
Probably the most intense yet best summer ever.
It had its ups and of course its downs,
The tears, the smiles and everything in between.
But what happened, well it happened.
And I'm proud to say I'm glad it did.

I really can't put ( Read more... )

This past weekend has been so eye opening.
Although my experience on the IW ACTS retreat was unforgettably amazing,
Every retreat has something special that differentiates itself from the others.
This retreat allowed me to really see what I was doing with my life;
In the past, the present, and the future.
So many people impacted my life this weekend.
I'd ( Read more... )