Ive always believed everything happens for a reason...I know I will be closing out another chapter in my life soon. I don't know how soon...but recent events have led me to believe its going to happen ( Read more... )

as time goes...i seem to be getting more and more aggressive. Am i bipolar...or am i meant to just be alone. I shouldn't feel this way about you. a part of me wants you more than ever and the other part wishes you would tell me to go away. yes,...you are difficult to love. what is it about me that makes me so insane... why do i feel like jealousy ( Read more... )

i am so anxious! all i can think about is what you wrote to that asshole! i am going to try my best to look away,...and ignore how i feel. i'm hurt...extremely anxious...pensive...and super emotionally exhausted. i want to be with someone..like me..man or woman. i dont care. my feelings have changed toward you...i dont feel the same...

Depression, anxiety, anger,...a few of the things i feel tonight. tomorrow is my birthday and i feel extremely disconnected. Where have the last 5 years gone? Ive done nothing with my life besides work several jobs. I'm still in debt. I put vero in debt. I will manage to get us out of this mess. every time i get on here...its like everything that i ( Read more... )

Clothes....i remember,...being so upset. I backed tracked a little...why..did i take my clothes...oh wait..i remember.. it was a saturday night and you went out with girls i didnt like. you stopped answering your phone...apparently it died..why was i so jealous? why did i lose control of my feelings like that... i came back home... unpacked my ( Read more... )

My heart hurts...my eyes, swollen from all the tears ive cried. i wish you felt the same way. wishing is so juvenile...it will never happen. ive never doubted your unconditional friendship love or you caring for me. this is the moment where i need to start to distance myself...i know that what we currently have will not last forever...i know that i ( Read more... )

Anger, anxiety, hate, and jealousy are just a few of the feelings I absolutely hate feeling. Especially all at the same time. As time has passed and my mind has matured I have learned to control these feelings. I know that lately i have failed to control them. So many things upset me, I can't brush off most things. Although at times I wished I ( Read more... )

WOW! I cant believe its been a lil less than 3 years since I've last updated. WTF right? Talk about depressing times! So am I over the craziness. omg..yes! LOL. Phew anyway,... a little catching up. During the last 3 years,...I've met new people, experienced great loss, fell in and out of love, moved out, found a new job,...oh man the list can on ( Read more... )

...i cant take this anymore ( Read more... )

she makes me feel so good... every touch, every kiss is just amazing... i love it when our eyes lock... omg..the butterfree feeling in my tummy. i dont want to rush it ( Read more... )