Alright, so I love my mom. I know I do. But sometimes she's just a stupid fucking drunk. I've tried to be understanding. I've tried to be helpful. I know I'm the only one that doesn't think she's a complete screw-up, but she's got a major drinking problem. When my sister lived with her in Florida I used to get mad at Amanda for yelling at mom and ( Read more... )

I just realized I know WAY too many Christophers...and of the three I've dated, they're all Capricorns born within 2 weeks of each other. Reeeeally wierd.

Happy Birthday Christopher....

(and a partridge in a pear tree)

:)

Yay! I'm scarred for life ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas! Wow, I really miss writing in this thing. If it weren't for the fact that I'm in Florida right now, and on my mom's computer, I still wouldn't be. I have no regular access to a computer in Ohio, so I've reverted back to my good old-fashioned leather journal. One of these days I have to actually print out everything I've written on ( Read more... )

I am a pool shark! (I wish.)

Man goes in the cage. Cage goes in the salsa. Shark's in the salsa. Salsa Shark.

Boo.

(bet you thought I was dead, didn't you?)

I cant do this anymore. It's eating me up inside. I cant continue wasting each breath with silence.

Song of Silence

The sound of unspoken thoughts
tension: a violin string
playing the discordant melody
a clock ticking: the tempo
keeping the beat
take a deep breath
continue singing in silence
Another wasted measure of your life

What I'm feeling tonight:

uncomfortable
angry
sad
alone
confused
wary
weary
distant

Basically like I'm going to burst into tears any second for no discernible reason. I'm not sure if this is what having a heavy heart feels like, but it might be. I think I'm going to take a bath and go to bed.