it wasn't just her. the immense sadness, the crushing defeat, the empty void where my sense of self used to live - these were just measurable aspects of a much larger construct. it wasn't the loss of her, it was the loss of faith that accompanied her leaving. it was the belief that i wouldn't end up like my parents, it was the idea that i was ( Read more... )

i've been sick. second day of work this week... in the office, that is. i like having a job that allows me to work from home ( Read more... )

change of plans.

no longer going to yosemite during the second week of october. instead i think i'll go back to school for a couple of years.

i am either really smart or really dumb. time will tell.

i'm going to climb/traverse this ridge during the second week of october:


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i have recently realized that much of my unhappiness in life stems from placing unrealistic expectations on those around me ( Read more... )

Greetings from the future ( Read more... )

Trip report ( Read more... )

...that's not entirely true. she's going to wear this dress tonight that she wore on new year's eve. it's so incredibly hot, my testicles would have to be made of play-dough not to feel jealous at missing out on the evening with her ( Read more... )

i'm 24 hours away from dropping my cat off at a kennel, driving to an airport, and waiting to board a plane for japan. it's so odd... it's starting to feel real, but it hasn't quite sunk in yet, not like it will when i'm at the terminal waiting ( Read more... )

"...strange suggestions to travel may be dancing lessons from God."