i thought my life would slow down, become simpler, and i'd have more time to enjoy things. i somehow thought that the sunny afternoons would stretch on a little longer and the nights would be filled with wild adventure, giving way to mornings where i was exhilarated at the thought of the upcoming day. now it just seems like there's too many things ( Read more... )

i'm about to put the finishing touches on my final report and email it to my professor. family is already in town. father should be getting in tomorrow ( Read more... )

i'm imagining myself on a long, solitary camping trip through a stretch of wilderness. i somehow think that this is the best approach to getting stuff done. i haven't been able to work on homework for quite a while and i can't explain it. it feels like something broke in my head, or maybe something broke a while ago and the gears are finally coming ( Read more... )

"...once we are lost unto ourselves, everything else is lost to us."

i haven't posted in this thing for years. it's because it grew compromised. it was no longer my secret little way of sorting out thoughts and kicking myself when i was down. but, more importantly, i haven't been down for a while. my life has actually been going really well.

• haven't had a cigarette for around two months
• have a kick-ass job
• starting ( Read more... )

this evening i got home and sat down to put in a little post about my weekend ( Read more... )

i have terrible habit. i find myself sitting in front of a computer quite often and quite often it is connected to the internet. i find myself searching for people (creepy). sometimes it's people i know, other times it's people that i should know (like, seriously, who is this "blake" asshole and why is he on the cover of the seattle p.i. on a tri- ( Read more... )

"...there exists, it would seem, misery that one does not get used to; there is deprivation to which one does not adapt. This fact has, it appears, no counterpart for positive emotions. Joy, bliss, and fascination invariably tend to fade toward neutrality or some pale contentment. One must, I think, posit a law of hedonic asymmetry, the law of ( Read more... )

i just submitted my formal request for an internship position in new york city for this upcoming summer ( Read more... )

two birthdays and a halloween party this weekend ( Read more... )