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meh. another fourth of july.

i keep having dreams about f.; three days this week, in fact. he's going to laugh when i tell him about them. they're...so, so weird. i'm going to go watch "batman beyond" - for some reason i'm addicted to that show. nothing much else to say, i guess.

i miss you, r.

i'm really, really tired of living here.and i don't understand why people bitch about not having any friends or people that care about them, then when others make an effort to get in contact with them they don't reply. i haven't heard from ^batty^ since the attrition show, and she promised that she would write to me. apparently she felt "so awful ( Read more... )

last night, i dreamt that shaun, r., and i were ninjas. we had to fight our supreme enemy m (who coincedentally, was making an appearance as a soul-sucking vampire). it was gvn and drogg's responsibility to provide the dream's soundtrack, as well. as we were fighting, i noticed a large majority of my friends list dressed as cheerleaders. if you're ( Read more... )

two more nightmares, and no one's around. fuck. you know, i think that i've figured out why i sleep better during the day. the dreams don't show up as frequently / intensely, then.

everyone's a jaded fucker, just like me.

i can't help it that i'm still thinking about you, even after it's been so long? why do i have to put myself through this, over and over? i put on the facade of "yeah, i really don't give a shit" to everyone else, but inside i'm hoping to hear something, anything from you. just to know that you still think ( Read more... )

help, the kitten needs a name. on an unrelated note, i am in the worst possible mood.

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i wish that i could stop dreaming, just for a night. actually, i wonder if i can make "nightmaring" a word. if that's the case, then i wish that i could stop nightmaring for a night. naps count in this, too.