i'm a bit torn up inside right now. i just saw some people i hadn't seen in a while. one particular one struck me. because once there was something and it's just painful knowing that i destroyed it. it's painful how stupid i was. i'm having a hard time dealing with the fact i threw something really good away because i guess i thought i was too good ( Read more... )

i feel really bloody shitty. i stayed home from school today. i'm full of things i should have done. i feel like things can only get better, but i know they may get worse. what lovely roller coaster, what sticky cotten candy, what greasy hair and warm weather will bring happiness back to me? maybe if i speak enough in codes, maybe if i play enough ( Read more... )

today was a very multi personality day. from all wanting to be alone to giving erogenous zone lessons. oh my mind my mind why do you do this to me, why do you torture me so ( Read more... )

i feel like one big ball of mucus. it's really disgusting. i feel really really bloby. but i'm super pumped because my aunt is coming to visit for a few days and she's the best. Maybe I'll get some good advice from her too. Cause that's what I need right now. Goooood advice. Terri already gave me a bunch, it's just so hard to actually communicate ( Read more... )

Lover, I'm on the street ( Read more... )

i'm feeling very good right now. 1. i had a really good therepy session. 2. i found out who killed laura and i'd been right all along. I FIGURED IT OUT BEFORE DALE COOPER! yes, i am god. sex god. ruler of the world and the underworld. fuck yes.

( thanks kate! )

i feel like i'm dying. sick. tired. incredibly depressed. i don't know why my head hates me so. i just don't know.

i smell like boys. god bless them for not being men, if only peter pan were right, and boys could be boys forever. some boys mature but don't grow up, but there aren't many of them. god bless those select men, for being who they are, even with their secret smiles and akward glances. but boys, oh boys, i love your hugs, i love the way you reek or ( Read more... )

i got a bag i ordered today. it's really fantastic. i love it. I'm not sure when i'm going to use it though. It's blue and furry ( Read more... )