I'm really working on bettering myself and helping myself with this depression. It's hard. But no one said it was going to be easy. I found this book online, I've been reading it and it says I have to come to terms with my inner demons before I can truly get better. And oh boy are there alot of demons...But this is what I have to do if I'm not ( Read more... )

I'm pointed towards another nervous breakdown.

This is getting serious.

Well, Rob's been lying to me for months ( Read more... )

I'm lonely as hell and tired of it ( Read more... )

Only Gina and Rishard showed up for my bday. Paul and Chris came, but left like 1/2 hr later. But at least Paul came. Odd how my bro can be so all about family, but never want to hang with his sister ( Read more... )

It's my birthday, and I'm really really lonely.

I'll probably lay on the couch with my bird and my xbox and drink that bottle of rum tonight.

I REALLY hate people

Do I have "fuck me over" written on my forehead or something?

I hate people

I also had my 1st full-blown asthma attack last night.
It really sucked.

I hate being alone so much and doing nothing all day/every day.

But I hate the people around me. I ask for small favors, I just want to celebrate my birthday and people are giving me problems about it. I want to see my friends and leave this basement. I feel like a caged animal.

I'm losing my mind being unemployed.

And I can't stand New Jersey Unemployment.