So it's a new year. A lot of changes have already taken place for me. At times it's a bit overwhelming. Going from a 5 year relationship, to being on my own for a good amount of time, right back into another serious relationship. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining about this. I am very happy with Sam. But we have for sure gone through some ( Read more... )

M.,

I miss you. I am not sure why I can't tell you everything I want to tell you in person, because that is so much more my style....but I feel out of touch with you right now. Not because of anything you have done or because of anything I have done...OR maybe it is because of something we have both done. You are one my spookiest fiends, in fact, ( Read more... )

A pill to make you numb,

A pill to make you dumb,

A pill to make you anybody else...

but all the drugs in this world can't save her from herself.

Loosing sight of who I am and what is important, I throw it all away....

What the FUCK am I running from? Who do I fear the most?

My hands can hardly type the thoughts that float about in my head. they are all over the walls of my brain and they are tainted by a past that will not die because I will not say goodbye.

Something that I really need from people is for them to not judge me. Do not assume you know where I've been or why I am doing certain things that I am doing right now - at least not unless you have actually talked with me. Sometimes I don't even understand me or the decisions I make, therefore, how can you? I realize that there are certain actions ( Read more... )

drugs kill.

There is this idea of altruism....that someone can do something for someone else without any amount of selfishness ( Read more... )

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LJ Interests meme results

1. black dahlia murder:
   In 1947, Elizabeth Short, aka "the black dahlia" was murdered. The details surrounding her murder are horrid and captivating. Taking the name of this infamous case, The Black Dahlia Murder is a metal band that I have seen live twice and though they are not well accepted as "true" metal, I find their ( Read more... )

You are a Black Coffee
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