Note to self: I am an adult; I WILL act like one no matter the occasion. Come a time where an over abundance of balls happens to be needed, I WILL grow some. I'm growing up and have no fucking clue what to do with myself. About 12 more weeks until my 18th birthday, when I'll officially be an adult. I've already started college with a ( Read more... )

Hey livejournal. It's been a while ( Read more... )

I have no friends.

and I think I'm okay with that.

The fight with Mike put alot of things in perspective for me. I don't want to be treated like shit. Especially by some one who doesn't care about my feelings, who uses me, or thinks hurting me is any way shape or form funny. I'd like to say that we won't be friends again, because we all know we most ( Read more... )

Tonight I was burying Charlie. Tonight I had to work. Mike came in today to "help out" by standing next to Katie for an hour or so "helping" her. I don't give a fuck WHAT he says. If I told Mike I was coming in to help him and ended up helping some one else for an hour or so with him in my situation then i'm so sure Mike wouldn't have a problem. .. ( Read more... )

Charlie died tonight.. I'm starting to come up with ways how it was my fault... But what i'm trying to understand; is that while his death may have been my fault, he  went in a good way.. My mom and I held him until he passed.. It's so sad to start thinking back on his life. It's sad because I know everything isnt permanant.. everything eventually ( Read more... )

I miss this screen name. I think i'll be moving back my things to this name and start posting here from now on ( Read more... )

I dont think I'm going to write in this anymore.. I'm using another username.

later