I'm kind of hostile to the world today, I'm begining to not like much of anyone and I swear if the next time my mom asks me if I want to move and nothings changed, I will. Dude I won't even wait that long, if things don't change..I'll ask my fucking self.

I need to go to the doctor or something, my anxiety is getting worse and I'm always nervous and shaking and my heart is always beating so fast. And my "stress" patches are moving places lol ( Read more... )

I'm a mess, i guess. It's what i've asked for. It's what i needed.

we're headed for destruction.
the hope i almost hung myself with.

No one understands and I hate it.

I'm falling apart but this time no ones there to pick up the pieces. I can't wait till I'm so gone.

Sorry guys for being an asshole, I'm serious when I say I want to leave ( Read more... )

I've been so fucking confused lately, I hate it. :[ But I also love it so much too. I had two awesome days where I can hold her and kiss her and say what I want and then I had two days to watch her with someone else. It's like my happiness just teased me and was ripped right from me again. I wish she would make up her mind. And even if she doesn't ( Read more... )

I have to do this..and I know almost everyone is going to get mad at me and hate me for this and I might lose friends..but it's better than being lost in myself. I have to do this for myself and theres no way out of it, no matter how bad it's going to hurt, I have to. Don't even ask or try to figure it out, because you will sooner or later..and go ( Read more... )

Just for that moment time stood still.
Nothing mattered but the thrill of things to come
and never knowin' where your goin'.
A little nervous and out of practice,
sweaty palms and an awkward silience.
You pulled me closer for a kiss and I'm so scared to feel like this.
Can't stop my hands from shakin'.

And though it's our last night,
let's make it ( Read more... )

I'm kind of getting sick of everyone and everything. I can't wait till I leave this summer, and I hope I love it a lot more than I do here so I can just leave and not even turn my head. I'm so sick of the bullshit with everyone, and even though no matter where you leave theres going to be bullshit, it's better than this. I feel like all my friends ( Read more... )

Idk whats wrong with me. I'm really fucking pissed off, I was just at work and this bitch manager that new I was on the grill right behind her was talking about football and some kid said "oh that's gay football" and then she started talking about "flaming homosexuals" and going on about how she doesn't know why we have right and she thinks we ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up to my mom crying histarically. I couldn't stand it..I got up and layed in bed with her and held her and talked to her and fell asleep with her. Now I realize what me and my sister do to my family and I feel horrible..they can't take it anymore. We're such bitches :\.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Amanda
2. Manda
3. Dyke

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. behindherheartx
2. boobie erection
3. aw auoq (read it upside down, YEAH)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. eyes sometimes
2. hair sometimes
3. big mama ;x hahaa she makes me happy

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. how i've ( Read more... )