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sporadicfungian

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Nov 09, 2009 09:43

i feel so fucking broken. not emotionally broken, exactly. maybe more like defunct. like my brain really just doesn't work anymore. like i can't hand in papers on time anymore. or even less than several days late. like i open up word and then feel anxious and blank and i don't understand how i got through high school. i can't think anymore. i don't ( Read more... )

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boringhetero November 9 2009, 16:01:26 UTC

Do you have any flexible profs? I know that when I was having a problem getting things done for Intro to Psych, I ended up writing a short story that was an analogy for what we were talking about instead of the actual assignment. Can you add fun and random to your course requirements?

sporadicfungian November 9 2009, 16:06:03 UTC

i don't think so. i've never heard of that happening, ever. and i don't want to like talk about my mental health issues with my TFs cuz i don't think i'm depressed... the only symptom i have is complete inability to get things done. which isn't enough for a diagnosis.

also fun and random probably wouldn't help, i'm not like a creative person

but thank you for the suggestion

gavinahand November 9 2009, 20:40:31 UTC

complete inability to get things done is seriously still a sign of depression, especially if in the past, no matter how long ago, you had been able to get things done on a semi regular basis. people who are depressed for a long time forget what not feeling depressed is like. before i started medication, i had periods when i thought i wasn't depressed because i wasn't completely miserable anymore, but now that i am on medication (and i am not promoting meds, i'm just promoting help) i am so happy it's ridiculous. i mean, even though my job is pretty shitty and a lot of my friends are gone, i'm still really happy! i like waking up in the morning. but i never imagined i would be this happy again. i never imagined anyone was this happy. and even though the struggle was AWFUL, so goddamn AWFUL, now that i am here i can't believe how easy it was. does that even make sense ( ... )

sporadicfungian November 9 2009, 22:05:55 UTC

what confuses me about the past couple weeks of my life is ( ... )