A friend of mine from school needs to grow up. Multiple times he has said one thing and within a few days has broke his word. He cliams it is my fault. And because i am way too forgving, i take him back. Last night he said something again and i wonder how long he will keep it this time. I would assume for longer than he had. He will have a month of ( Read more... )

is different. My friends have been telling me how they think i have changed physically and in my personality. Matt told me i am definately more confident. and that i look more defined. He later tried to describe it as womanly. haha It was nice though, he was like, "your still my Dez, you make me laugh all the time. But now you look.... hot.....no ( Read more... )

I sat in the mall today with my best friend, Rebby. We had been shopping for Christmas presents all afternoon and both were exhausted. I found myself looking around the room and thinking, I would never trade me life for anyone else's, no matter how good it may seem. I love being 18. I love being away at college. I love being with Mike. I love never ( Read more... )

I havent written in a while. Well, i did start to write something but i ended up not feeling as motivated as i wanted to be about the subject when i sat down so it became a 4 line private entry that now is just going to sit there ( Read more... )

I am beginging to have a certain comfort in myself. One that i didnt know existed before. I dont feel better than anyone else. i dont feel more mature, i dont feel smarter, nothing of more than or better than. I just feel content in myself ( Read more... )

so my weekend was pretty much amazing.

Beep came out and we sat on our butts and did nothing. it was pretty amazing. lol I loved getting to be iwth just him for an entire weekend. It made me feel like home. I can act like i do at home around him, which is totally retarded. lol i feel like i didnt even get a weekend though. ugh it went so fast. I ( Read more... )

i have been miserable at this school. lets list what i cant stand about this school ( Read more... )

I suppose i never imagined myself today. meaning what i would be like today. I never really thought what college would be like, what i would look like, or how soccer would be. I definately never imagined having a long distance relationship and loving the man Im with more than anything else in the world ( Read more... )

So since savannah and i broke my comp i havent had it... best buy has. but today i finally got it back! yay!

lol So currently we are 5-2-1 
Im getting along with most of the girls better. 
I am thinking if things dont change I an going to come home next year. Ill give it another game to try and see what the coach is thinking.... ive talked to him ( Read more... )

I dont i have ever been made feel as shitty as my team made me feel today.  We had our first home game. We lost 3-1. We got one PK and i almost stopped it. But the entire game my defensive line told me "if you had done this" "if you hadnt done that" "you should have" "you need to ( Read more... )