Everything is going wrong. But when is it ever good? I hate the feeling I have. It is getting so fucken cold it sucks soooooooooo bad, snow and wind chill factor sucks PT in the fucken cold with my toes going numb, this is what I wake up for every morning. JUST loving it. I am so California dreaming just about now, I know its not hot or anything ( Read more... )

I will be in L.A OCt 8-15 so give me a call

another year a year older nothing really different just sucks not being with the ones you love.
I don't like this place. But maybe I'll like it later .

After my 4 day ordeal to get back to this wonderful country. I am back and in NY. Not for long well Feb I am suppose to go somewhere that is not the U.S. But for now I am back. ALthough it is not back to the place I love it is good to be back in THE UNITED STATES!

Cell # if anyone wants to give me a call 315-771-5609

The confusion is overwhelming. I wish things were easy. I just wish I knew. Or I wish that I could be satisfied with the right choice. I know it is, but why do I always question it? Why is it that I am reminded of the what ifs when I see his name or when I think of long term? Sometimes I wish I was alone just so that this would all sink in. This is ( Read more... )

I am so shocked to know that he killed himself. HE seemed so in tact, that there was no worry in the world for him. He was a good NCO had everything together in work, and seemed okay. So here I stand baffled like so many others as to why he did it. I am aware that it is really hard to be in the military, away from your family and what you are use ( Read more... )

So here it is. The moment that I will find out what is going to happen. I really am hopeing for the best. I doubt anything good is going to come out of this. I am terrified and it sucks that I am such a weak person and let it get this far. I hope it is good and that everything will go okay. I don't know why I act like I don't know what the outcome ( Read more... )

I have a month and a half left in country. Elva will be here from June 10-18. So that will be great. I am super excited ( Read more... )

How I long for a vacation a break away from this place. It really isn't that bad it is just time consuming at times. Last week our Chaplain and a lot of people in our battalion visited an Orphanage near our post. I had a great time. The children are so awesome and cute and so full of energy and so willing to get to know you and play with you. It ( Read more... )