shitshitshit  I fucked them all up.  Tried one on and they're children's size.  I've been busting my ass to get these done before Tuesday.  I can't believe this.  I just made another pair last week that fit me.  I don't know.  Shit.  I'm going to have to take them apart and start over, which is fun because I already cut the yarn.  The first ( Read more... )

Last night was stressey, but I was pretty chill about the whole mess today.  Until evening, but that's a chronic ailment.  In new med side effects my eyesight is blurry even with my glasses on now.  This one is a temporary stabilizer addition just until I improve my circumstances with jobs and the like.  Mostly the job thing.  Working on a smallish ( Read more... )

Last night my training and therapy failed me.  I failed me.  There was a push from my aunt and grandmother to get in contact with my mother, making it sound like she was on her death bed.  Turns out I'm a sucker and my grandmother is making shit up all over the place to do "the right thing" and bring the "family" back together.  Amid much inner ( Read more... )

It has been a long day of me sobbing in group and in consult.  I am a ball of goo.  Asking the gaming group if it's possible for me to Skype in to session.  I am not prepared to go out again tonight.  Group therapy; it ain't for the faint. 

I am so tired.  I've bounced from project to project and not sustained work for more than a few minutes.  I ate and cleaned up the kitchen, as far as responsibilities go.  Other than that I have barely enough energy to type this.  The partial hospitalization is exhausting.  Group therapies of varying kinds all day, plus I walk a mile to and from ( Read more... )

The last 3 days I've woken up and checked the time at 5:13 am.  It's starting to feel like an omen.  The nurse practitioner suggested I take the Abilify in the morning instead of at night because this waking up at pre-dawn started concurrently with the start of the med.  So I didn't take it last night so I could take it this morning.  Still up ( Read more... )

So my player is leveling me.  I learned Mattress Stitch while making a finger-less glove with my first thumb gusset.  For as small as it is, this damn thing is the result of a fuck-ton of work.  It will be worth it when people compliment me on it.  The remaining challenge is to make the other hand...It has been a pretty good day.  I cleared off my ( Read more... )

Yesterday was interesting in my body.  I had fewer and less painful headaches.  Tendinitis is getting better, but not gone.  Can you get arthritis in one finger?  My right pinky has been hurting more and more.  Stomach is in flux.  Hot multi-grain cereal with blueberries was fine.  Chili and taquitos were not ok.  Ended the night with bread and ( Read more... )

Day 4 of new med brings headaches.  My stomach is still not sure about this stuff, but my head has lodged a formal complaint.  *breathe*  Give it time.  It is likely this will pass.  The wheel of side effects just has to get its due.  I've been pretty tired and wanting to nap in the afternoon.  Not sure if that is from my recent lack of exercise, ( Read more... )

Doc added Abilify.  I'm to take 1 for 10 days, and if nothing changes, take 2.  I'm having a few side effects, but they could be really helpful.  My stomach has become more sensitive.  If I eat a lot it hurts and I get nauseous.  No effect if I eat a small amount.This is helpful to curb my emotional eating.  For the last 3 mornings since I started ( Read more... )