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fuition to the machinations of evil
the last few weeks of my nightmares have come to fruition. i have had a series of nightmares each one complimernting the other. last night they came to a viloent end. ina grocier store an attempt was made on my life. i took 3 bullets to my upper torso and 2 to my lower abdomen. through the carnage my wife was stabbed to death and my daughter ( Read more... ) -
yearning for vipers
well as the school year draws to a close i decided to reflect on this school year. in short IT SUCKED TREMENDOUS AMOUNTS OF PENIS!!! but i am looking forward to orlando. in world of warcraft i find myself in between guilds since the one mrtexas led died after he stopped playing. the one thing i miss about libertas manus was that although its ( Read more... ) -
countdown
well i have about 2 weeks till school is over with. i decided to abandon my dream of making video games and continue on my path to the career as a college proffesor. also on the 14 my vacation in orlando begins. i was hoping to thin out some before the trip but i havent been very successfula and im hoping to make a good impression. last night was ( Read more... ) -
MALICE ME WITH A SHOEHORN?!?!?!
lately ive been plauged with a various assortment of nightmares. from taking a shotgun to the head to losing my ability to speak, to watching someone i care about beingmurdered in front of me. normally most people say its just a nightmare but many of my nightmares came true in the past, johns death, friends becoming enemies, a friend commiting ( Read more... ) -
good to be at my home away from home
ugh good to be at my dorm again. well easter wasnt too bad. finnally got a hair cut but i accidently went to the guy who cut my brother's hair so i ended up having his roman hair cut !yuck! oh well at least i dnt look like a werewolf :P. helped move some stuff out of the house so some men could finish repairing the walls after the hurricane. had ( Read more... ) -
feeling helpless
seems like every day my mother is in tears about my brother's death and now that i have to watch i feel so helpless that there is nothing that i can do to ease the pain of his death, nothing to console her. it breaks my heart to see her like this and all i can do is detach my self from the house and dive in to an artifical world where there isnt ( Read more... ) -
ouch just ouch
ok so for some unknown reason my eyes have been really hurting me. it feels like the same burning sensation for an eye infection that almost left me blind during my sophmore year in highscool. came home for the holidays and mymother is doing worse and worse with my brothers death. but personally im sick of all these masses and her sitting around ( Read more... ) -
looking for eyes unclouded by hate
trouble is a compainion that everyone looks for but never wants. well i have about six of those. let me tell u why in 2 years this is the people who im either related to or friends with have died ( Read more... ) -
soooo sick of people who feel the tendency to be assholes
wow people r cruel, stupid, and love to be assholes. THIS IS ONE OF THE REASONS WHY I DNT ACOSIATE WITH PEOPLE. cause humanity is a worthless system that doestn deserve to exsist and im ashamed that i live in a time and a country where people think that they can do whatever the fuck they want no matter who gets hurt in the process. why im typing ( Read more... ) -
so good a mood people thought i got laid
saturday was truly the best day ive had in a while. no offense to people ive hung out with lately. well i woke up at 3am for some reason and couldnt go back to sleep. so i watched this intresting show called trigun and it was ok, made me chuckle a little. then i decided to shave shower and all that good stuff. but at around seven i went out ( Read more... )