now i know people act extremly different twords people when they meet over he internet but this is just dumb. a friend of mine named mrtexas went into a vent server of people who said he was their friend and as he entered he managed to say, hi guys before getting banned. normally i wouldnt care but the reason was tat it was a guild server and for ( Read more... )

someone very important to me asked me a very awkward question what do i want for valentines. this once again triggered my comtemplative nature. there are many things ive wanted to be better than my brother, to recieve forgiveness for hurting others, revenge for being hurt, companionship for what seems to be a very lonely life, love, understanding ( Read more... )

im tired.. im tired. im under so much pressure lately. things are spinning out of control. ive been having realy bad headaches that wont go away. i feel lost with life lately. i sleep but i gain no rest, i eat but gain no strength, i senses r becoming dulled and im being crushed with all these expectations, attetion, and trials. as bilbo once ( Read more... )

to be honest i am really apreciative of all the people who offer me their condolinces and prayers (if u pray >_<) and things of the like. but deep down inside it just reminds me that hes gone. but there i think its alittle overboard when people check to make sure im ok in the community shower. no offense but unless ur an atractive women plz dnt ( Read more... )

im useuly not creative like this but something came to me in the form of a poem ( Read more... )

one word busy busy busy. bought my books finally for my clases and my japanese history class has 4 books. i smell back problems coming :P. ive begun to realize just how shitty our dorm building is being its over 30 yrs old!!!. for some reason im still waiting for my twin brother to call me asking about the shows he missed on saturday, but i know ( Read more... )

finally got my internet set up at school. my parents went to a monastry for a few days to have some quiet and probably make peace with all thats happened lately. now i have the daunting task of not only applying for full sail since now we can afford to go there and my parents say my brother would want me to get the best education possible. ( Read more... )

man i finished burying my brother and that was an emotional rollercoaster. im worried about my mom though she is taking this espically hard. i started hanging out with some of mrtexas's friends in wow and most of them are ok. but as always things are bitter on the dunemaul side of things. argh im startingg to think they enjoy arguing with me ( Read more... )

my twin brother died last night in a car crash. he was riding with one of his friends and his friend was driving too fast and the car flipped over and killed both of them. it angers me that i toldd him that screwing around in a car will kill u and he never believed me. i am turning off comment security for thos who live in the lake charles and ( Read more... )

went to a birthday/ going away party that was fun. today i changed the moods on my messages to a much better apearnece that the old one. although my bday isnt for another 2 days my famly celbrated it on friday since i moved back college today. everyting made it through the holiday except i forgot my tv's remotecontrol. im glad i dont have to ( Read more... )