i need to make another plan just in case we dont work out.....my life is all planned around him, that needs to change.....and everyone agrees with me.

im so worried about where my life will end up in a few years....im so confused i feel ive totally fucked myself ive made such bad decisions......im never going to be free......how could i have been so stupied....i wish i could do every part of my life over again....keep friends i should have and not change who i was for anyone. Im so not me anymore ( Read more... )

i am so sick of my life..and everyone in it.

i deleted myspace.....thank god...mabey that will get rid of some of the drama in my life.

all i need is myself.

IM so over all this bullshit he's putting me through...i told him i didnt want him talking to any of his old friends and what does he do..he trrys to make plans and get there phone numbers and use time he should be with me and his baby....if this is how fucked he wants our relationship to be then so be it. He's proven so many times to me that im ( Read more... )

i hate my life.

i talked to chris tonight and from the tone of his voice and words he chose it seemed like he wasnt the chris i met three years ago it still seems like he hasnt really changed. Were both changing and growing apart and mabey its because were doing our own thing now,and mabey things will change once i start seeing him on sundays. Its conversations ( Read more... )

so its alittle late but i would like to announce i had a girl she was 6 pounds 7 ounces 18 1/2 inches long...she looks just like chris...shes so preety...anyways bye.

So i turned 38 weeks yesterday...and im 3 cm dialated which means shes coming soon all i need is to dialate one more cm and i go into labor....im scared i wish chris was here...well anyways i know im going to be fine. 13 more days till the big day shes my christmas present its what i wanted...Izzabellas going to be so cute ( Read more... )