chris still has not called her yet i'm debateing on if he is really going to brake up with her before he comes to see me because if he doesn't i don't want to see him in less he with only me

I'm talking to sasha on the phone she just wants to let everyone know that she finds out what the baby is tomorrow and If not then she'll find out on the 17 the day before she'll get to see me that and she loves chris very much she cant wait to see her three friends before she leaves and you know who you are and I know how fat people think... ( Read more... )

Chris called today and umm i guess before i get sad or happy i have to talk to him about everything when he comes over....he says he wants to be with me but he's still with her so he needs to leave her soon. I want him to be with me and only me im tired of sharing him i love him to much to imagine other girls touching him...uhhh..dont like that at ( Read more... )

I have alot of decisions to make and im really confused on what to do and i have to figure out if i want to stay here and get told that its only temporary and then later on get told its my last chance im not sure whether or not i want to stay and continue to get phone calls that just make me hate my life even more or move and see what happens when ( Read more... )

August 18 im leaving for Albuquerque so excited to bad im going alone but i guess i cant do anything about that. the 23 or 24 im coming back and mabey by then ill have my plan figured out on where i want to go and live at.....i really wish it didnt have to be this way i really thought he loved me, he promised he'd never leave me like my other ( Read more... )

Im so tired of being yelled at when he's on some substance...he's always so mean to me he ditches me for his friends and dosent like to see me. I hate my life im always so sad cause the only person i love hates me and wants nothing to do with me i want to make everything alittle easier and get rid of the problem which is me....he dosent love me and ( Read more... )

I got kicked out of summer school and i have nowhere to go after i get dropped off by the bus unless chris hangs out with me...i doubt i though...he dosent really care about me ( Read more... )

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im up..and im eating waffle sticks and a bowl of chexs...yum..im really hungry though....so i will eat all day i just decided.
love you chris.

Today was fun..i walked a whole shit load but today was all worth it...no comment on why...heheh...yesterday was great lately things have been well,lets hope it lasts. I miss him and im lonely..but i am acompanied by Katie and Britney tonight so im better than i would be at home alone. My vacation is coming up soon im preety excited but i reallly ( Read more... )