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[spunkyfaerie]

I cannot figure out how to stop thinking about him.

I HATE him

and I hate myself for still loving him.

Comments

[kittybean]

:( - Distraction is a powerful tool!

[spunkyfaerie]

indeed... thats why I need to find a job!

It is hard

[nosferatu_yasha]

It is always hard to try and forget someone, espeialy if you still love them. Distraction is a key and a job might help but if you really want to forget someone the best way is replacement.

Re: It is hard

[spunkyfaerie]

hey yash... I really thought that no one would read this and I could write all sorts of melodramatic self pitying kind of stuff.

I think the key will be finally get the rest of my shit out of his house so I never have to see him again, but I have no interest in seeing anyone new, I think his being with the same new girl since 3 weeks after we broke up was the cruelest thing he could have possibly done...

Hmmm

[nosferatu_yasha]

Speaking as someone who has a well deaffaning fear of comitment now, I think he is just one of those people who can't be single. Either he has to rely on someone else or deep down he has a fear of being alone and if he can't be with someone he loves he grabs on to the next bet thing and hopes for the best.

In a way I am kind of jealious, I have never though of anyone as part of me so much that I could not be with out them. Or need to be with someone so bad that if I was ever single I would find someone else to fill the void.

Re: Hmmm

[spunkyfaerie]

I'm not sure I know what you are talking about here... he doesn't love me, was more than happy to be rid of me, he was just too chicken shit to be the one to break it off. Not wanting to marry me was just an excuse. He'll get married when the right girl gives him an ultimatum. This Devon may even be that girl if shes willing to sleep on his exes couch cushions with him and let him walk around all smelly and mustachy....