I haven't talked to him in a couple days. I haven't seen him in a couple weeks. I miss him in so many ways. My days are getting better, I can smile now but something always reminds me of him. Today I put in one of his Cd's, it took everything I had to not cry. I miss arguing over music with him. I always liked his music but it was fun to argue ( Read more... )

The past couple days has been hard. The other night I finally figured out what I needed to do, something I tried and failed three times… weeks ago. I told Nate that I can’t talk to him for a while. The first time I told myself I wouldn’t talk to him anymore was when I found out about the aftermath of the relationship (his part), but then he called ( Read more... )

What ravages of spirit ( Read more... )

My mom is driving me crazy. She is on my case about everything, about school, about Nate and now about Niagara Falls. At dinner my parents suggested the idea we go to Niagara Falls over a long weekend in October. They mean well, but neither my sister nor I were really excited, it ended with Lindey, my little sister, saying… “I guess” and me saying ( Read more... )

My lj needs HELP!

Honestly... why do we have pinky toes? They are so ugly...

s P u Z z 3: your my mom ( Read more... )

I hate pretending that I’m ok. Every time some one asks me if I am I just say yes, only because that’s the polite thing to say I guess. I miss Camilla so much and its almost as if my house is dark now that she’s gone. My mom says “Camilla truly lights up every room she steps in” but now all the rooms are dark. Her bedroom door has been mysteriously ( Read more... )

I just brushed my teeth. I have yet to move my toiletries to get ready every mornign from the down stairs bathroom (from when Camilla’s family was here) to the upstairs bathroom where it normally is. Sometimes is easier to get ready down stairs so I deliberate the positives and negatives to keeping them down here and so far the negatives is winning ( Read more... )

Time: A nonspatial continuum in which events occur in apparently irreversible succession from the past through the present to the future.

Why isn’t the word fast in that definition? I sit and wonder if life is worth living. Why? Because of time, time is God; it has more power over us than anything in existence. We can’t stop it, we can’t change ( Read more... )