WOW! It has been a really long time since I have left an entry. Well, right now is the day that I am going to leave one. There has been alot to happen since my last entry. I went through the death of my grandma, dated Jase on and off for almost 3 years. Best news would have to be, he proposed to me in December (which of course I said yes) and I ( Read more... )

Ya know..they always say that life is full of mistakes...well ya know Im starting to think that I made a big mistake...Im just trying to decide if I wanna try to fix it or if I wanna keep going and just hope like hell that everything works on in the end for the best of things. Sometimes it's weriod how at the time when your making up ur mind as to ( Read more... )

It's amazing how somethings just fall into play. Jase and I have decided to work things out, yet I still find myself completely unhappy. I have been spending a lot of time with David, and for some reason all though I know he's gay and into guys, I still feel like there is something between this guy and myself. The way he makes me feel, and the ( Read more... )

Well, today was interesting as hell, Found out Jase went out got loaded and some chick he didn't even know drove him home....yea okay whats wrong with this picture? At this point yes it bothers me big time but yet I don't really care.....Shrugs ( Read more... )

Ya know, one of my favorite sounds ever is the sound of rain. I have always had a thing for the sound, and the smell is just plain out OMG!!! I love it! I have pondered alot of things today, and nows the time to let em all out ( Read more... )

Tonight, after work, I went out with one of my bestest friends in the world. Who I met back in 2001 while working at wal*mart, to be honest when I first met him, he useta scare the ever living hell outta me because he worked over nights and I worked a midshift and every night that I was leaving the store he would run up and give me a hug or attack ( Read more... )

Well, the other night I chose my own destiny and today Im wondering if I made the right choice. Jase gave me a decision to make, and now Iam realy wondering if I picked the right path. I know that lately things have been bad with me but I guess only time can tell ( Read more... )

Ya know though, I said that this thing would die when Jase and I gave up, so I am able to update this because we are still trying. I guess it's every lil' gurls dream to find their prince and be swept away on a white horse, but that doesn't always happen that way. Sometimes, our real prince is who we least expect it to be. Another thing is he ( Read more... )

It's amazeing how somethings work out and how somethings leave us to wonder what if. Jase and I really never broke up, just really seemed like we had. He was trying to teach me a lesson, and I did something incredibably stupid which Im not getting in to. It was the past and it happened, nothing I can do will turn back time. I really fucked ( Read more... )

Well, I have been keeping this thing since Jase and I started going out, or pretty damn close to the begining. I guess this will be the last entry b/c this is the day that my heart will always ache. We are no longer one soul b/c we have let each other free. :( I guess sometimes a heart is meant to be broken but sometimes we need reminded that ( Read more... )