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[spyrals]

When it comes to relationships with people I am a bit severe. I don't value short term quick connections. Perhaps its ego or insecurity, who knows. But I find it more enjoyable to think of people in the long term. I only want to be surrounded by people whom I want in my life forever. If I don't think that tomorrow I will want someone's company, I

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[anchorman]

Hey.

You have no idea how much I agree with you it's ridiculous. The problem with me is that I work in hospitality so I'm forever making all of these quick connections with people and I have to admit it stems mostly from insecurity. That need to be liked and be a people pleaser. I've gotten a LOT better at not being like that and much better at only hangin out with the people I really like. But like you it means I have not a lot of friends and am often alone. This whole travel experience for example at the start I was making friends with anybody but by the end I was almost suspect of people. Maybe almost judging too early and only talking to 'some' people with whom I thought had true common interests with me. I felt a lot more secure in myself by not associating with just 'anybody'.

[anchorman]

oh also I couldn't find you on facebook with that email and it won't let me reply to that message you sent me hahaha.

Anyways I'd like to be friends with you too ;)

I know I can be found on m_a_go@yahoo.com on facebook.

[dramama]

I agree with you about people - I am much the same way. I can usually tell when meeting someone for the first time whether or not I am going to want them in my life long term. If not, I don't make the effort. If so, then I do make quite the effort. I'm pretty good at hounding people, lol.

When I feel loneliest is in the summer. I'm not working, so I have quite a bit of free time. When I'm busy with work etc., I don't feel it as keenly.

[beaniredux]

oh Ana... you know i understand. i have not one single real friend that isn't more than just a casual acquaintance. the only people that i truly reveal myself- thorns and all- to are in the virtual world, where it's somewhat safe (ironically) to do so. even though our own relationship has been sporadic at times, and only as full as it can be over the internet, do you realize that we have been friends for almost 5 years now? i wish i could merge reality and the virtual in my life better. like you, i feel lonely more often than not. these days i don't even make much attempt to keep communication going. i've really become the opposite of my personality. rambling...sorry

[mesoterica]

Don't know why it's so hard for me to think of people as temporary and I don't know why I am impatient with people whom I think to be temporary. Sometimes I wish I was different and sometimes I don't.

I tended to take that view, too, for a long time when I was younger and we were constantly moving all over the country - seemed like a waste of time to bother connecting with people I knew we'd only be leaving behind in a year or two. But I think I became a much happier person when I started just accepting those connections for what they were, no less real for being temporary. *shrugs* It may be different for you, of course, but if you're not exactly happy with the way things are right now it might be worth trying another approach, you know?

And also: cool dress! Gotta say, though, on the real, I think you're like an entire supernova hotter than that model. She's pretty and all, but she's no you, girl :)